What's Bothering You?

i'm having a pretty **** time right now. i'm coming up on my second year after graduating from college and i feel just as lost as ever. i have no idea what i'm doing. no idea what i want to do. i have two part time jobs that i work at 7 days a week and neither look promising as long term jobs. it feels like everyone i went to school with all have their lives moving in at least some direction. i'm living at home feeling sorry for myself unable to leave.

i feel pretty limited on what i can do to begin with. i've been regretting what i majored in in college, i regret not making more connections, doing internships. i would like to move out of my home town but, again, there's not much i can really do. i can't afford to move and i can't afford to go back to school.

on top of that, i have lost all but two of my friends. i have never felt more alone in my entire life. i literally do not have any friends in my hometown anymore.

and my laptop is on it's last legs so i'm about to have to buy a new one of those and I REALLY CANNOT afford it, but i don't really have a choice.

everything is going wrong and i want to cry.
 
My school change opening dates and i don't have the funds to change my airplane ride nor nowhere to stay for the days inbetween.
 
Mom doesn't even bother to write a simple "Happy New Year" to me, cool I guess.
(and yes, she is online / active)
 
watched the NY's fireworks, and every year i think the same thing: how much better it would be if we just gave that ludicrous budget to the NHS instead, especially this year after our crappy government effectively tried to cripple it with a useless track/trace system and trying to privatize it.
 
Apparently asking someone if they're alright and asking if I pissed them off somehow is not respondable material. Give me a break man.
 
:( i’m sorry, friend. you deserve better than to be broken up with on new year’s eve. sending love and positive vibes your way. <3
fortunately it wasn't on New year's Eve, only now did it feel right to post about it I guess. happened 2 days ago. but thank you for your support! I'm happy to know I have good friends on here 💕
 
Doug Ford is a complete goon. What are these new covid rules regarding school??? Make it make sense because I cannot
 
my equivalent of a s/o messaged me telling me it was over, and it's tough. we were together for two years.
Sorry that you have to go through this. And I agree with Xara you don't deserve this during any time, regardless of when it is. I personally find text/messaging as a really spineless way of breaking something off. It may be hard to deal with, but you are better off without someone like that.

I had a friend years ago who had their wedding broke off through text. Who does that? If they got something that serious to say, people need to do it in person.

@Beanz and @Mr_Keroppi Yeah Nintendo is horrible with the way their handle the manufacturing of their stuff. I remember when Fire Emblem Awakening first came out, I was going to buy it online and all of the places were sold out. It got scalped because they printed so few games. Guess they didn't expect it to sell so well in NA. Same thing happened with Pikmin 3 on the Wii U. I finally did get it in 2015 even though it was still a lot higher than it should be. I just asked a few of my family members to pitch in for a collective B-day gift. Then in 2016 it was released as a Nintendo Select lol.

Even the 3DS and WA cards were scalped before the whole AC craze with NH. It's kind of weird they would print so few of the Sanrio when that was literally the only update they gave us while we waited for the next update that was 4+ months later. I like Nintendo, but I feel like lately they've been dropping the ball. I don't know if this has to do with their new CEOs or what, but it feels like things have changed a lot more these recent years after the changes.

@Bluebellie Sorry to hear about your issue with the house! I don't want to come off as rude, but maybe this is why the house has been on the market for so long? If the owner is this difficult to work with, maybe others have tried and gave up already. They sound like a piece of work.

@Firesquids Sorry that you're dealing with that situation right now! I read your post about your roommate not being paid which will hurt the board fee. I've been working through this pandemic since it started and have been lucky enough to not catch it (yet/I hope never) but the government should be able to give them covid relief or whatever it is. Right? Or did they finally stop that. I know you could get a weeks pay or whatever for covid-related issues.
 
@Firesquids Sorry that you're dealing with that situation right now! I read your post about your roommate not being paid which will hurt the board fee. I've been working through this pandemic since it started and have been lucky enough to not catch it (yet/I hope never) but the government should be able to give them covid relief or whatever it is. Right? Or did they finally stop that. I know you could get a weeks pay or whatever for covid-related issues.
Thanks, it's been tough. There's also a snow storm here right now too so getting to the hospital and back to my house has been an ordeal. Lol
Luckily my fiance is well off so we'll be able to cover the cost for my roommate, good thing too because they only sent like three relief checks last year when we were in lockdown for months. I hate this stupid pandemic.
 
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Sorry that you have to go through this. And I agree with Xara you don't deserve this during any time, regardless of when it is. I personally find text/messaging as a really spineless way of breaking something off. It may be hard to deal with, but you are better off without someone like that.

I had a friend years ago who had their wedding broke off through text. Who does that? If they got something that serious to say, people need to do it in person.

@Beanz and @Mr_Keroppi Yeah Nintendo is horrible with the way their handle the manufacturing of their stuff. I remember when Fire Emblem Awakening first came out, I was going to buy it online and all of the places were sold out. It got scalped because they printed so few games. Guess they didn't expect it to sell so well in NA. Same thing happened with Pikmin 3 on the Wii U. I finally did get it in 2015 even though it was still a lot higher than it should be. I just asked a few of my family members to pitch in for a collective B-day gift. Then in 2016 it was released as a Nintendo Select lol.

Even the 3DS and WA cards were scalped before the whole AC craze with NH. It's kind of weird they would print so few of the Sanrio when that was literally the only update they gave us while we waited for the next update that was 4+ months later. I like Nintendo, but I feel like lately they've been dropping the ball. I don't know if this has to do with their new CEOs or what, but it feels like things have changed a lot more these recent years after the changes.

@Bluebellie Sorry to hear about your issue with the house! I don't want to come off as rude, but maybe this is why the house has been on the market for so long? If the owner is this difficult to work with, maybe others have tried and gave up already. They sound like a piece of work.

@Firesquids Sorry that you're dealing with that situation right now! I read your post about your roommate not being paid which will hurt the board fee. I've been working through this pandemic since it started and have been lucky enough to not catch it (yet/I hope never) but the government should be able to give them covid relief or whatever it is. Right? Or did they finally stop that. I know you could get a weeks pay or whatever for covid-related issues.
thank you for your kindness! I do agree they couldve done better, but they have struggled with social things in the past and I doubt they couldve told me face-to-face because they might not of handled it. but I might be giving too much credit. I hope we can still be friends though, they left behind me so many positive memories 💕
 
@Bluebellie Sorry to hear about your issue with the house! I don't want to come off as rude, but maybe this is why the house has been on the market for so long? If the owner is this difficult to work with, maybe others have tried and gave up already. They sound like a piece of work.

Thank you so much for taking your time to read my little vent there. It actually made me feel a little better today, just to know that someone stopped to read. No worries, it wasn’t rude at all, it’s exactly what I was thinking. When I saw that it has been sitting a while on the market, I figured it was because it just isn’t very nice looking (though I do see great potential). However when they countered I knew right away that wasn’t the case, it’s most likely the sellers own fault it hasn’t sold. I kind of wish they had waited until Monday or the Weekend to tell me the news. I didn’t know it would hit me so hard.

I have a problem though. I’m the kind of person that falls in love with almost every house I see…However, I’ve never become attached to them, until now. Big mistake since you really aren’t supposed to fall in love with house until it’s yours, but it happened. I’m very hopeful something eventually will come my way, and I’ll probably love it too. It would be my first house.
 
Thank you so much for taking your time to read my little vent there. It actually made me feel a little better today, just to know that someone stopped to read. No worries, it wasn’t rude at all, it’s exactly what I was thinking. When I saw that it has been sitting a while on the market, I figured it was because it just isn’t very nice looking (though I do see great potential). However when they countered I knew right away that wasn’t the case, it’s most likely the sellers own fault it hasn’t sold. I kind of wish they had waited until Monday or the Weekend to tell me the news. I didn’t know it would hit me so hard.

I have a problem though. I’m the kind of person that falls in love with almost every house I see…However, I’ve never become attached to them, until now. Big mistake since you really aren’t supposed to fall in love with house until it’s yours, but it happened. I’m very hopeful something eventually will come my way, and I’ll probably love it too. It would be my first house.
My fiance and I bought our first house earlier this year and it was so difficult, it was the 7th house we put an offer on and we had to offer 70k over asking price. It's a seller's market for sure.
Every time we were turned down hurt so bad (especially finding out the one someone paid for in cash and the one we got out bid by 100k, like seriously where do people get this money from?) That said I love the house we ended up with the most of any of the ones we offered on, good luck on your search!
 
My fiance and I bought our first house earlier this year and it was so difficult, it was the 7th house we put an offer on and we had to offer 70k over asking price. It's a seller's market for sure.
Every time we were turned down hurt so bad (especially finding out the one someone paid for in cash and the one we got out bid by 100k, like seriously where do people get this money from?) That said I love the house we ended up with the most of any of the ones we offered on, good luck on your search!
Congrats on getting your first house! I can image you are feeling very relieved. I hope you both enjoy your lovely new home for many many years to come!

And wow I would not be able to do 70k over. The sellers in my area are only interested in cash offers mostly, and conventional. They also want short sales with no inspection or appraisals, which I’m not totally comfortable with. I’m hopeful something will come my way. It might take a while though.
 
One of my "friends" that I was getting close to suddenly called my dog gay and has never talked to me since. What's his problem? Things were going absolutely wonderfully, sharing stuff about our family, exploring each other's music tastes and sharing experiences with the books we like, then out of nowhere "Your dog looks pretty gay" and gone for a week. What the heck?
Apparently asking someone if they're alright and asking if I pissed them off somehow is not respondable material. Give me a break man.
A new update for these! For those of you who were concerned about this (None of you...lol)

Apparently the dudes messaging apps collapsed on him. Not sure about all of the details of the gay dog thing yet, but when I brought it up he said he didn't want to talk about it. Seems like he truly regretted saying it! He was unable to respond to my question because he was literally unable to send out the message without getting an error. Also, my assumptions that he went through a personality change were wrong. Once he got his messaging app working again, he turned back into the man I know and care for.
So, for some predictions, because I don't want to bombard him with questions at 12 in the morning.
I'm assuming one of his bros took his phone (He sent me photos of him with a friend to back this prediction up) and his friend is a little too extroverted for his own good. I can get how the dog thing could be humorous, but it's just not my kind of humor. He probably had good intentions, but it was not executed to the right audience.
Will he apologize? I don't think so. If he does, I'd be really surprised and would def respect him for doing so.
This is honestly the best New Years news I have ever received. Just when I thought this friendship was crumbling fast, he came back and assured it wasn't. I'm really just...aaaaa
 
I don’t know if I should continue using the antipsychotics I’m on. They help wonders with my mood and anxiety, but they’re the cause of my weight gain. Working out hasn’t helped since the new muscle adds to my weight. Now I’m taking additional medication to help with the hunger, but it hasn’t made a big difference. I still have a stomach that rarely feels full. Is the antipsychotic worth the weight gain if it’s making me feel sane?
 
I keep seeing so many nye posts on social media and it just makes me cringe. It makes me wonder why people think nye is so special and why they feel the need to blast it on social media. I just don't find it that exciting.

also I've spent an excessive amount of money over the past few weeks and I may run out of money 🙃
 
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