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What's Bothering You?

every time I want to do a video recording I procrastinate until it gets too late and I get really tired. I'm telling myself I'll do it tomorrow but I prob won't do it then either. idk why I can't get myself to do anything I want to do.
 
It’s getting late, and I’m thinking I should have went to sleep just a bit earlier. I’m going to sleep now, though. Just had a few things to take care of.
 
My sleep schedule, possible bronchitis, autoimmune diseases that keep me from being being able to get out hardly during covid and and not being to a mall in years.
 
I’m tired and have a headache, but can’t take any medicine due to my antibiotics.
 
Despite my better self esteem, I’ve been feeling off tonight. I just feel ugly for no real reason. Sure I’ve been called that a lot in the past, but normally that specific insult stays in the back of my mind. I wish this thought would go away.
 
really wanted to sleep in today but I've already woken up like 5 times this morning and I still don't feel rested. might try one more time and then ig I'll have to give up and get out of bed.
 
Work stressing me out 🙃

Do not want to move and also getting a work phone.. Like okay it's good where we are now but they don't have a proper policy plus its "updates" are just ugh.
 
i feel like my personality is really abrasive and it makes me unlikable, i wish i wasnt such a jerk but idk i feel like if im not then people will be rude to me so i gotta put up barriers before people can hurt me

sad bcz taco bell will never bring back the strawberry frutista freeze ;_;
 
I'm a constant disappointment to myself and I feel like a constant disappointment to my family 😞


edit: I feel a little better bc I reminded myself that I was gonna be kind to myself today and that I didn't need any self imposed negativity. so I'm spending the evening playing Pokemon 💕

I still feel like I disappoint people constantly (and I disappoint myself every day ofc) but maybe I can work through this if I'm conscious abt it and try to be positive.
 
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was reading some random stuff on wikipedia and came across a really cool, unique word that I thought would make for a great brand name if I ever start a business where I sew my lil bags, but when I googled it the name was already taken by some stupid blockchain app metaverse whatever-the-fudge startup company 💀 really hoping they die out soon so I can claim the name for myself maybe
 
It is nice to care about myself individually but it is also concerning how few people I really care about. I’ll have many chances to talk with people I suppose. I prefer time to myself so much more. Forums are nice because they aren’t too direct and I can open doors to socialise without feeling pressure.
 
Sometimes I feel kinda bad for my co-workers cause they're so used to being clanked down on from higher instances to the point where they have like 0 say in stuff. Sure I don't either really but it's lowkey frustrating how my workplace has this hierarchy and how people be like "oh whatever" about it rather than wanting a change.
 
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