It also bothers me that people expect or ask me if I'm going to do such and such when they know I don't work anymore because of limitations. If I can't stand for hours at a time without issues that last for a few days afterwards, then I am not going to volunteer to do that. If I can't lift heavy things cuz of bleeding problems then I'm not going to lift heavy things above my head. Or if I can't reach something, then I'm not going to magically reach it just because you want me to. I have to use things like step stools and if that makes things too slow to your liking, or too cluttery then idk what to tell you. If I have to move things one at a time to avoid dropping and damaging stuff and that's too slow, again idk what to tell you. Or if I can't remember simple things, idk why you would think I would be helpful in a team effort thing. More often than not people get frustrated with me, so why put myself in that? I mean I bring 2 dishes of food ready to eat when I do go to events at this place, is that not enough help?
Why are things just not enough for people in general unless in am dealing with pain and damage?
Just cuz I'm at home doesn't mean I don't keep busy or that I'm lazy. It is impossible to be bored. There is always all kinds of stuff to do, whether those things are considered fun or not. I keep busy at a pace that is healthy for me.
And even if I was idle or lazy, why would you care? You aren't my parent and I'm not a child and we don't live together
like why in the world would it matter to you at all??
I just wish people would just leave me alone on stuff. I shouldn't have to explain things and even if I do, I get brushed off as a lie or over exaggerating. I'm glad we already decided to back off of those event things for the rest of the year cuz of inflation because this is just irritating. Maybe they didn't mean anything by it, or they just don't put two and two together for some reason, but honestly I'm just tired of it repeating in my life and all the experiences I've had attached to those moments.
I'd be a great hermit honestly..
And I'm dreading the holidays and fam stuff today too which isn't helping. Though my phone has been quiet today, it was blowing up yesterday interfering in stuff I was doing ( like YouTube, listening to the news or music while doing stuff, trying to text other people, trying to sleep) and I can't turn my phone off because a neighbor just had major surgery and may need my help with something, so I'm just stuck with it. It is one of those group messages which I despise and have asked multiple times not to be put in them but you know, they just don't understand how irritating they are because they think it isn't a big deal... Or that stuff in them is helpful or funny and it simply isn't, But I use my phone to help me focus and to reduce anxiety and over stimulation. But even if I turn the notification sounds off, the thing still pauses my videos or music Everytime.
These groups randomly kick back up even a year later and I have no way of removing myself from them from what I can tell. Sometimes more than one group blows up at a time and they have the same people in them
. I really wish that feature of removing yourself was present because it drives me insane.
Anywho, answers are being wanted now for something that isn't happening until the end of next month. I mean I am glad planning is early, but why demanding answers now?? Why not just set a date and let people get back to you when it's the end of October? We all know that group message isn't going to be forgotten. So many stupid pointless stuff is talked about in those groups. And no one can manage typing a message without hitting enter after every 5 words or after every emoji face.
Ugh
There for a while someone was sending a dull joke everyday and everyday you'd have million messages of emoji faces and 'haha' going back and forth and dear reader, if you are still here, don't dare think the haha and emoji faces were one message alone. I'm glad it finally died.. but I still "fear" it will come back to life when Thanksgiving hits and Christmas hits and also new Year's Day.