So uhh, long story short my home life isn't the greatest. (don't feel comfortable sharing details, if you want to know pm me ig) About a year ago I realized it isn't normal, and my mental state has been in a downward spiral since. (and no I don't have access to help unless my friends count) I poured my heart out to one of my really close friends through email, and one of the things I told this person was they can tell people as long as a) I know the person, b), my parents don't find out, and c) they don't treat me differently because of it. So the person told their parents, no big deal, right? They know me pretty well. Well, turns out I forgot the parents are friends with mine, and when we went to set up something to hang out, the parents didn't respond at all. Maybe I'm overthinking it, but for whatever reason I feel like it's my fault for giving close friend the permission to tell a very small group of people.