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Roaches! German roaches! Our neighbors at the apartment brought them in, now they're everywhere. Waiting for the exterminator atm. :(
 
i log onto instagram and apparently im suspended AGAIN, last time there was just a pop up that went away but now they want my email and phone number but instagram won’t text/call me to give me my confirmation code. this time i actually read to notice and they don’t give a reason why i was suspended. you could at least tell me why, i was trying to see if i could email instagram the other time this happened and there’s no support email. if you have a platform this big, there is absolutely no excuse to not have customer service. meta is ridiculous.
 
I woke up not wanting to go to work today. No reason really other than I don't like work/I just want my final notice to be up.

A coworker called out yesterday but I have to wonder if she's going to quit. Guess time will tell. Then we'll be even MORE short staffed in my department🙄
 
guy at work was playing his own music when i arrived, and i had to work right next to him. normally wouldn't be an issue, but he likes genres i can't stand, and i couldn't focus or think because my mind just kept going back to how much i didn't like it. ended up having to leave the warehouse, and one of the bosses ultimately had them turn the radio on instead; now i feel kind of bad because apparently the guy is also autistic like me. i didn't need to have my preferred music on if it bothered him, just his off. unfortunately, i think headphones are a big no-no, and even if they weren't, mine are wired anyway. he basically disappeared after they put the radio on, so now i'm worried he's mad at me.

another work woe. went to have my break, and the room was filled with the teenagers they teach. they're the loud and obnoxious type, which really overloads me and triggers my anxiety. i ended up not eating any of my lunch and just going back to work because it was Too uncomfortable. my co-worker pointed out that they're allowed to be in there, and fine, but as a company that actively takes in a lot of neurodivergent volunteers, separate break rooms or at least making sure break times between completely different groups of people don't clash feels pretty obvious. (also their teacher was in there practically encouraging them to get fake ids and share how to, um-)
 
Pikmin Bloom, here's why:

Using like 3+ years old geotag data.

RNG determining what you get but some are impossible unless you live in the "correct" country. Like fat chance I will ever get weather, we don't exactly get extreme weather here and rain/wind etc. only doesn't count lol.

Mail ones being impossible unless you find a standalone mail hub since we don't have post offices anymore.

Why did I start it 🤦‍♂️
 
My dad refuses to take me to vote because I want to vote for a different candidate. He says he’s not taking me if we cancel each other out. And for the record, I want to vote for the democratic nominee because the other dude is way too extreme on abortion. I normally vote third party anyway 99% of the time. #petty**** so I may delete later.
 
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Seriously, how are people falling for this? ;-;
I did a URL scan of the link in the email on a site and the site provided me this picture, I blocked out the name/ domain because I care too much for the safety of others.
 
So uhh, long story short my home life isn't the greatest. (don't feel comfortable sharing details, if you want to know pm me ig) About a year ago I realized it isn't normal, and my mental state has been in a downward spiral since. (and no I don't have access to help unless my friends count) I poured my heart out to one of my really close friends through email, and one of the things I told this person was they can tell people as long as a) I know the person, b), my parents don't find out, and c) they don't treat me differently because of it. So the person told their parents, no big deal, right? They know me pretty well. Well, turns out I forgot the parents are friends with mine, and when we went to set up something to hang out, the parents didn't respond at all. Maybe I'm overthinking it, but for whatever reason I feel like it's my fault for giving close friend the permission to tell a very small group of people.

Also feel like I'm just a big burden and everything happening in my life going on is my fault.
 
I wish it didn’t bother me so much when certain people don’t like me. I know I don’t need external validation.
 
I feel like I can't enjoy my favorite month this year. I'm trying though.
It also bothers me that people expect or ask me if I'm going to do such and such when they know I don't work anymore because of limitations. If I can't stand for hours at a time without issues that last for a few days afterwards, then I am not going to volunteer to do that. If I can't lift heavy things cuz of bleeding problems then I'm not going to lift heavy things above my head. Or if I can't reach something, then I'm not going to magically reach it just because you want me to. I have to use things like step stools and if that makes things too slow to your liking, or too cluttery then idk what to tell you. If I have to move things one at a time to avoid dropping and damaging stuff and that's too slow, again idk what to tell you. Or if I can't remember simple things, idk why you would think I would be helpful in a team effort thing. More often than not people get frustrated with me, so why put myself in that? I mean I bring 2 dishes of food ready to eat when I do go to events at this place, is that not enough help?

Why are things just not enough for people in general unless in am dealing with pain and damage?
Just cuz I'm at home doesn't mean I don't keep busy or that I'm lazy. It is impossible to be bored. There is always all kinds of stuff to do, whether those things are considered fun or not. I keep busy at a pace that is healthy for me.
And even if I was idle or lazy, why would you care? You aren't my parent and I'm not a child and we don't live together 🤨 like why in the world would it matter to you at all??

I just wish people would just leave me alone on stuff. I shouldn't have to explain things and even if I do, I get brushed off as a lie or over exaggerating. I'm glad we already decided to back off of those event things for the rest of the year cuz of inflation because this is just irritating. Maybe they didn't mean anything by it, or they just don't put two and two together for some reason, but honestly I'm just tired of it repeating in my life and all the experiences I've had attached to those moments.

I'd be a great hermit honestly..

And I'm dreading the holidays and fam stuff today too which isn't helping. Though my phone has been quiet today, it was blowing up yesterday interfering in stuff I was doing ( like YouTube, listening to the news or music while doing stuff, trying to text other people, trying to sleep) and I can't turn my phone off because a neighbor just had major surgery and may need my help with something, so I'm just stuck with it. It is one of those group messages which I despise and have asked multiple times not to be put in them but you know, they just don't understand how irritating they are because they think it isn't a big deal... Or that stuff in them is helpful or funny and it simply isn't, But I use my phone to help me focus and to reduce anxiety and over stimulation. But even if I turn the notification sounds off, the thing still pauses my videos or music Everytime.

These groups randomly kick back up even a year later and I have no way of removing myself from them from what I can tell. Sometimes more than one group blows up at a time and they have the same people in them 🙄. I really wish that feature of removing yourself was present because it drives me insane.

Anywho, answers are being wanted now for something that isn't happening until the end of next month. I mean I am glad planning is early, but why demanding answers now?? Why not just set a date and let people get back to you when it's the end of October? We all know that group message isn't going to be forgotten. So many stupid pointless stuff is talked about in those groups. And no one can manage typing a message without hitting enter after every 5 words or after every emoji face.
Ugh 😩
There for a while someone was sending a dull joke everyday and everyday you'd have million messages of emoji faces and 'haha' going back and forth and dear reader, if you are still here, don't dare think the haha and emoji faces were one message alone. I'm glad it finally died.. but I still "fear" it will come back to life when Thanksgiving hits and Christmas hits and also new Year's Day.
 
Tried putting in the password for my tablet and the screen froze. I've tried restarting but the thing won't even load, and even after multiple hours the screen's still frozen. I think I might've broken it somehow. ; ;
 
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