What's Bothering You?

I feel dreadful. About 2-3pm a headache hit me. Took a 2hr nap, woke-up and it was worse. Took a painkiller, still feels like it is getting worse not better. Drained too.

My partner is lovely though. She came home around 7pm, asked if I'd eaten, suggested ordering from a one of my favourite go-to comfort meal places. Said I wouldn't enjoy it enough to justify the cost tonight. So she went back out to find a local chip shop for a cheap simple hot meal. I've no energy to cook so it is definitely appreciated. 🖤
Well this has gotten worse, not better.

Managed to struggle through the morning to get some housework done (completely gutted and reorganised my kitchen). Now it's noon and I'm dying on the couch. My partner's gone out to do the grocery shop and try to find me some migraine patches because painkillers aren't doing a damn thing.

Upside before lying down I put on the breadmaker. The smell is wafting into the living room and is delicious. 😋
 
Promised myself I'd try to be more of a positive presence on social media (including the forums) but I need to get something out of my chest. It's just boring ex partner stuff to be honest.

I wish they'd stop messaging me all the time. I told them I need time, I muted them on discord and they're still targetting me in their status (not in a mean way. I can tell the status is about me because it's worded like a message.) I'm suffocating. I need time and space if we're going to be friends again/remain friends. At this rate, I'm very close to blocking them.
 
One of the times I woke up today was when Spanky was snuggle and sleeping with me; I thought she was one of my late cats for a minute because I had a dream with her in it.
In my dream she was really sick and I was trying to save her. The dream looped some scenes a little. A few times she was attacked.
It was just a dream but even after going back to sleep and waking up, I’m really sad. I miss her and my other late kitties so much.
 
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Very minor: I’m worried that tonight in game I sounded rude or angry. I wasn’t mad at all but I’m worried it came out that way. I had a lot of fun tonight. I’m probably worrying for no reason; still, I’m just having fun when we play and I worry that what I say comes out wrong or my tone since I have trouble reading tones too. Some of the stuff I say in ghost chat too, now that I think about it maybe they come off angry sounding when I was just having fun and joking and being silly about some things. like if an imp kills me or someone susses me when I’m crew, i get confused (when it comes to being sussed) but I really am not mad. I don’t mind if imp kills me either.

Maybe I need to not joke so much since when it comes to rl situations at least, it always falls flat since my sense of humor is bad and just embarrasses me. I say a lot of dumb stuff when I have too much fun or am excited too

I really hope I didn’t make anyone uncomfortable or upset.
 
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