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My job is seriously making me depressed lol. Between staff being a pain in the butt and the department being in the 💩 financially, it’s just draining.
 
I have no faith in this holiday season. it's just gonna suck again, like it has the last couple years I've had to spend it with my dad. he makes everything so awful and miserable. I honestly wish christmas would just come and go, I don't even want to celebrate it. I'm tired of dealing with family, I wish I could just take my mom and my animals and get away from here.
 
While trying to put my contacts in last night, I dropped one on the floor. I spent a good 15 minutes looking for it, but I finally gave up since it was probably dried out by then. About five minutes ago, I'm sitting in bed and I just happen to glance toward the end of my bed. Lo and behold, there's my contact just sitting there on my bed of all places. Makes me so mad. Those were expensive.
 
My job is seriously making me depressed lol. Between staff being a pain in the butt and the department being in the 💩 financially, it’s just draining.
Update: had a meltdown and cried to one of my coworkers. Unfortunately I don’t feel any better. I just want this day to be over 🙃
 
My job is seriously making me depressed lol. Between staff being a pain in the butt and the department being in the 💩 financially, it’s just draining.
A lot of jobs just aren't getting with the times. This might not be what you want to hear, but if it gets to be too much for you, you always have the choice to leave and find another place of work. Your health, both physically and mentally are more important than a job that just sees most of us as an expendable number.

You don't owe them anything, especially if they're making you feel downright miserable and expecting so much for so little compensation. So many places are so short-staffed and then they show their appreciation to those that stayed by putting larger work loads on them without compesation and act surprised when it backfires and those employees also leave.
 
Isn't amazing how one person can flip your mood in an instant all because you know how much of a crap friend they've been over the last year or so and they carry on that theme by writing the most generic message in a Christmas card. Yet even though I want to scream and shout at them for their behaviour I also refuse to lower myself to their standards because I know I'm better than them. Period.
 
love when people cry in (social) media because they can and people believes it all rather than talking to the person (or equivalent), lol.
 
-I miss my room and having space.

-While I’m glad that Dad isn’t drinking as heavily as before. It still bothers me that the only reason that he’s changing is to prove my uncle wrong. Uncle basically told him, “I’ll lose weight once you stop drinking.”

What about us? Did our feelings not mean anything to him all these years?
 
I really wish I would've acted better back in 2020, i had so many unresolved mental issues and I said and did terrible things i feel so bad about

In fact: this applies to 2021 too! Just this year I figured out what's wrong with me and have been trying to fix myself and my mistakes! I've hurt people and i wish i could reverse it, i know it's all over now and dwelling on it is no good but :(

I also hurt someone very near and dear to my heart this year, i just hope i can have a fresh start in 2023. I want to change
 
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I feel like I desperately need some help but I have no one to turn to 😞
7cups
Bliss
The Trevor Project
Find a Therapist
Here are some free/affordable or useful options that may have some people who can help, refer you to help, or even point you in the right direction. If your local healthcare provides it, try calling a mental health hotline. Your doctor would be a great idea too if you can.

If all else fails or you need to be in a better mindset now, here are some other options:
Yoga for Anxiety
I really like yoga and it helps me calm down, theres other people too this is just my favorite lady. She also does mediation if yoga's not your thing.
8 Things You Can Do To Improve Your Mental Health
Everyone loves a good psych2go video, this could be of some help but its not a replacement for professional help or medication.

Check and see if your state/region/country has any other mental health resources that could be of use.

If you're ever in a severe mental health crisis that might involve dark thoughts, call 988 immediately. Your life is worth it.

Hopefully this doesn't seem unsolicited, holidays can be really hard for me because of reasons involving the paragraph above and I genuinely just want to make sure nobody suffers.

Drink some water, allow yourself to smile, and hope things will be okay. You matter here on the forums and everywhere else more than you know.
 
7cups
Bliss
The Trevor Project
Find a Therapist
Here are some free/affordable or useful options that may have some people who can help, refer you to help, or even point you in the right direction. If your local healthcare provides it, try calling a mental health hotline. Your doctor would be a great idea too if you can.

If all else fails or you need to be in a better mindset now, here are some other options:
Yoga for Anxiety
I really like yoga and it helps me calm down, theres other people too this is just my favorite lady. She also does mediation if yoga's not your thing.
8 Things You Can Do To Improve Your Mental Health
Everyone loves a good psych2go video, this could be of some help but its not a replacement for professional help or medication.

Check and see if your state/region/country has any other mental health resources that could be of use.

If you're ever in a severe mental health crisis that might involve dark thoughts, call 988 immediately. Your life is worth it.

Hopefully this doesn't seem unsolicited, holidays can be really hard for me because of reasons involving the paragraph above and I genuinely just want to make sure nobody suffers.

Drink some water, allow yourself to smile, and hope things will be okay. You matter here on the forums and everywhere else more than you know.
I appreciate this so much 🥺💞 it feels nice to know that there are people who care 😭😭
I actually just talked to my therapist earlier today abt what's been going on. long story short I need to get myself and my mom out of this house. we have barely any money for food and yet my dad makes too much to qualify for food stamps. we're behind on bills yet he somehow has thousand of dollars to spend on useless stuff. not to mention he's very verbally/emotionally abusive to me and my mom. I really feel like I'm just stuck here and there's no help for me or my mom (we're both disabled so we can't work enough to self-sustain). I'm tired of not having any money for important things. I'm also tired of being terrified every day bc the mere presence of my dad in the house makes my anxiety so bad. I feel absolutely hopeless and I'm honestly miserable. I just want to get out of here, to live somewhere where I don't have to deal with someone who is lazy/gross and complains nonstop and makes us feel like failures. idk what to do.
 
I appreciate this so much 🥺💞 it feels nice to know that there are people who care 😭😭
I actually just talked to my therapist earlier today abt what's been going on. long story short I need to get myself and my mom out of this house. we have barely any money for food and yet my dad makes too much to qualify for food stamps. we're behind on bills yet he somehow has thousand of dollars to spend on useless stuff. not to mention he's very verbally/emotionally abusive to me and my mom. I really feel like I'm just stuck here and there's no help for me or my mom (we're both disabled so we can't work enough to self-sustain). I'm tired of not having any money for important things. I'm also tired of being terrified every day bc the mere presence of my dad in the house makes my anxiety so bad. I feel absolutely hopeless and I'm honestly miserable. I just want to get out of here, to live somewhere where I don't have to deal with someone who is lazy/gross and complains nonstop and makes us feel like failures. idk what to do.
That is such a heartbreaking and difficult situation. I'm sorry you have to go through this😔 keeping you in my prayers and hoping things turn out alright for you and your mom eventually.
 
I appreciate this so much 🥺💞 it feels nice to know that there are people who care 😭😭
I actually just talked to my therapist earlier today abt what's been going on. long story short I need to get myself and my mom out of this house. we have barely any money for food and yet my dad makes too much to qualify for food stamps. we're behind on bills yet he somehow has thousand of dollars to spend on useless stuff. not to mention he's very verbally/emotionally abusive to me and my mom. I really feel like I'm just stuck here and there's no help for me or my mom (we're both disabled so we can't work enough to self-sustain). I'm tired of not having any money for important things. I'm also tired of being terrified every day bc the mere presence of my dad in the house makes my anxiety so bad. I feel absolutely hopeless and I'm honestly miserable. I just want to get out of here, to live somewhere where I don't have to deal with someone who is lazy/gross and complains nonstop and makes us feel like failures. idk what to do.
I seriously can't believe how similar our dad's are lol. From everything I've read from you, they're so similar in a lot of ways. The thousands of dollars to spend on useless stuff hit hard, because my dad is so like that. Spends hundreds a week on unnecessarily stuff, then flips his lid when there's a small maintenance issue with the house or car. Like bro stop trying to live a lifestyle that you can't afford?? Also the mere presence of my dad puts me on edge bc I never know when he's going to flip his lid again 😪

It feels good to know that I'm not alone in this. Hang in there 💞
 
I'll join the ****ty acting-dad club if i can, lol....for other reasons than above but yeah he very much sucks most of the time.

and he thinks i want his money when he lit never done anything good for me, lol 🙄
 
Feeling empty and I don’t know why.

Also, I wish I looked older, but I don’t know why most people think I’m a minor. I don’t know if it’s my face, the way I dress, my height, or whatever. I can’t fix my face. I’m male-passable without facial hair, so I guess their minds go to “child.” I hate looking young because people think I’m lying about my age, even online when I was called out in a comments section of Facebook for saying my age. What do they want? My ID?

A bunch of *******s on Facebook. I’m glad I deleted that trash platform.
 
Sigh
Last Christmas both my rabbits were alive and now they're both dead so this holiday feels lame af. Also I got diagnosed with OCD this week and I decided to tell my mom and be honest and I can tell she's disappointed so now I have a stupid guilty feeling for something I can't control. I also gotta start new meds which is the worst.
 
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