What's Bothering You?

I have to deal with my parents when they have to keep interupting me when speaking and so many times they forget important stuff I have to keep reminding me like 5 times. :mad:
 
The past couple of weeks haven't been the best for me, I guess. I've been feeling really depressed, I keep getting into arguments with my family everyday, and I feel left out and ignored in my friend group. I have absolutely no motivation to do my schoolwork or hobbies, I sleep much more often, and I'm more distant and anti-social with the people around me. I feel like I can't talk to anyone about my problems because they seem petty in my eyes, or I just get criticized for something I did wrong. I don't know what's going on, but it's like I'm in this slump and I don't know how to get out. I don't know, but it's taking a pretty big toll on me.
 
Keeping this vague but it feels like when I have a good day I return to people being aggressive or mopey and it feels like negative reinforcement

disassociating more often
 
Many things are bothering me that I'm concerned about, actually it is more like I am disturbed and angry. 2023 is the start of a new age it seems, and not a good one. I'm disgusted and disappointed.
 
I finally finally had my appointment with a neuropsycologist after many delays. A round of covid, cyclone, etc.

and i got to hear the words "I have no doubt in my mind that you have a mixture of ASD and ADHD"

I'm relieved, excited and in disbelief

It's so weird that something I believe I have is actually true, that it's not just something I've made up in my mind

I'm excited to get treatment for AuDHD rather than just lumping everything under the bracket of anxiety

I'm also annoyed that no one in my life had spotted it sooner. None of my teachers, not my parents, relatives or anyone. My mum used to always tell me that nothing was wrong with me as a kid, but I knew that there was something. there had to be something. There had to be an explanation of why i am like i am, why i wasnt like other kids (or why other kids avoided me like the plague).

this diagnosis has given me so much closure
I told my parents about this and treatments and they didn't seem to believe me lol. It sucks that they have such an old fashioned view on ASD/ADHD and likely have a stigma towards it, but honestly I don't care because if said treatments make my life better that's all that matters to me.
 
My favorite person is the only person I felt who genuinely cared about me. I’ve even had SO’s in the past who didn’t care about me half as much as she does. With them, it felt like I was forcing a relationship because it felt nice having someone there even if they weren’t into it. It doesn’t feel forced with her, at all. I haven’t dated in years. I forget when my last relationship even was, but it’s been over five years at least. Things just haven’t worked out.
 
constantly feeling like I'm inadequate compared to others and that I always fall short in terms of luck/success. I'm sure that's not true but idk. 😞

also tired of getting exhausted so easily, wish I could just function like a normal person for once haha
 
i like how it's 10pm and my neighbor's dog is still outside barking away (and has been for at least the last 4-5 hours) 😐
 
I have not slept well at all these past few nights. it's 5am and I've been awake for at least half an hour and struggling to go back to sleep. I've woken up multiple times during the night, twice because I had nightmares and accompanying hypnopompic hallucinations which are very scary.

idk what my deal is but I just want to be able to get a decent sleep so I'm not feeling tired nonstop during the day 😭😞
 
I still can’t draw as often as I used to. I really want to-if there’s not an idea rolling in my head there’s a backlog of them within my memory-however 90% of the time my brain seems stuck, for lack of better words to describe. I end up doing something else as a distraction from the thoughts in my head since it bothers me more and more as time passes.

I don’t want to give up on art entirely because despite this, I love drawing. Always been a favourite hobby. But thinking of how easy starting things used to be, compared to now...I feel hopeless sometimes.
 
*me explaining that the person on the latest episode of Catfish is transgender (mtf)*

My dad: “So it’s a dude?”
 
Just finished work and I'm waiting for someone to show up to buy stuff I put online to sell. Don't know why I bothered lol, they'll probably flake. I just wanted to give all the crap to Goodwill or some place like that, but noooo we can make money. I could put this stuff online for free and still get nothing but flakes.

It's really annoying how socially acceptable it is for people to ghost, flake on commitments, and just be lazy. Like how hard is it to say you're not interested anymore you lazy turd. Then I could know I didn't have to wait or hang around for you. People suck.

Edit: Well I wasted enough time. Just going to donate it all, put it on the road for free, throw it away, whatever. Don't have time for flakes. Especially not for $30 items. Which is really a steal considering this crap runs for 150 easily and is in good condition.
 
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Just finished work and I'm waiting for someone to show up to buy stuff I put online to sell. Don't know why I bothered lol, they'll probably flake. I just wanted to give all the crap to Goodwill or some place like that, but noooo we can make money. I could put this stuff online for free and still get nothing but flakes.

It's really annoying how socially acceptable it is for people to ghost, flake on commitments, and just be lazy. Like how hard is it to say you're not interested anymore you lazy turd. Then I could know I didn't have to wait or hang around for you. People suck.
Speaking of this, I sold something on Ebay last week and I’m still waiting for the person to pay. I don’t think it’s happening.
 
Speaking of this, I sold something on Ebay last week and I’m still waiting for the person to pay. I don’t think it’s happening.
I don't really know all the ins and outs of Ebay, so I'm not sure what your protection is here, but for future orders I would only deal with upfront payments. Sorry to hear about that. Things like this tend to push sellers away from their platforms, but Ebay and (places like it) love playing the idiot to make their seedy buyers happy.
 
I don't really know all the ins and outs of Ebay, so I'm not sure what your protection is here, but for future orders I would only deal with upfront payments. Sorry to hear about that. Things like this tend to push sellers away from their platforms, but Ebay and (places like it) love playing the idiot to make their seedy buyers happy.
We aren’t supposed to ship unless the payment is confirmed, so I still have the item. It’s just a pain to relist the item and put it back up for sale.
 
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