What's Bothering You?

My best friend keeps making me feel worse even when he’s trying to help me. He said today that he doesn’t want his new year to be gloomy yet he told me he met someone right before christmas; making my christmas “gloomy”. i told him that and he did not like it. he is right i am acting childish and not thinking rationally but for the eight years we’ve been friends, I’ve been emotionally invested in him so ofc i’m going to more than upset. he should have stopped things between us sooner or not done anything period since he knew I liked/loved him. When i say anything, he says I’m being either passive aggressive or threatening him or guilt tripping him. I’m not though. I was once passive aggressive but recent years, I’ve learned how hurtful it is and what it even is and so I’ve been avoiding doing that anymore. He made me so mad today! if someone you care about is hurting and isn’t safe, you shouldn’t yell at them or be passive aggressive. also he should pay more attention when he says something like ending things not before christmas. he says he doesn’t mean to hurt me and i normally believe that since he is very blunt and honest, but the timing was so awful and he can be really insensitive. before this new job, and even more before he moved to where he is now, he was always here for me when I needed him. now he’s never here for me… I can’t bear this.
 
2024 just started and I'm already mad. A pipe broke around midnight and there was water all over the kitchen floor and a cupboard as well. I also missed my first ACNH countdown. :(
 
I'm on the eastcoast of Japan, but there was a big earthquake + tsunami warning on the westcoast today that alerted us to and said to evacuate. We found out after couple of minutes it didn't involve our area, they just warned big parts of the country. My boyfriend asked our (Japanese) neighbours what we should do, and they had a TV were the news said we were in the safe.
Thankfully we are still safe, but we are still shaken up about it. For several minutes we thought we were in serious trouble. I was napping when the alert came in so I was extra frazzled.

Ofcourse happy to be fine, but my anxiety hasn't been able to calm down to much. Cant even imaginen what the folks in the affected area are going through:( don't think I'm gonna sleep well tonight
 
i have these weird rashes/bites on my foot, the side of my finger, and elbow, and idk what they are. flea bites? bed bug bites? allergic reactions? hand foot and mouth disease? at least they take turns itching now and then and not all the time/all at once.
 
People from my former job are transferring to my new job. I know how I feel about it, and why? At least I’ll barely see him, but he better lose my deadname since that’s what he knows me as. He thinks he’ll have it easy because it’s an easier job, and it is, but if he thinks the manager will let him **** around like at the old job, he’d better think again. This store actually disciplines people that don’t work, which makes me think he won’t last very long anyway.

I’m not happy about him following me. 😣
 
My bathroom mirror fell down and shattered.
Jesus...

H...

Christ.

This year's turning out great.
 
tomorrow’s the last day of my break, i’m really not looking forward to being in the office but i just have to keep telling myself it’s to fund my hobbies ;_; it would be much more bearable if my supervisor worked from home like everyone else, i just hate that she always decides to disregard my lunch break even after checking the window and seeing that i’m eating, i’m really considering looking around the building for a somewhat private lunch spot so she leaves me alone

my sister is also leaving in two days, so we’ll be back to a quiet and boring life
 
shout out to whoever was in charge of the work calendar because they set it up as our office being closed until tomorrow, the office was in fact open today and i missed work 🤡 it’s already 12pm so i’m not gonna bother considering i already made other commitments and there’s no point showing up for 3 hours because of someone else’s screw up
 
I hate how so many modern games have virtually illegible text that can’t be resized—if you live somewhere where you can’t be close to your TV you’re just out of luck, I guess.
 
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