What's Bothering You?

I feel like some people are gonna blame me for not voting for Harris in the 2024 election (even though I didn't vote for Trump, either.) In fact, I didn't vote for anybody in this election because I'm not even registered to vote. Regardless of who won the election, one side is gonna throw a hissy for about it because the candidate THEY rooted for didn't win and the other side is gonna be like "haha, in your face! we won! suck it, losers!" It's like if you vote for Trump, you're a terrible person, if you vote for Harris, you're a terrible person, if you don't vote at all, you're a terrible person.

I like to follow the latest news on politicians and all things politics on the news and stuff out of curiosity. I'm lowkey afraid of even mentioning my political views to anybody because I'm pretty sure people are gonna tell me crap like "you must be a (blank) supporter!" or "you're just a racist/sexist/homophobe/transphobe/whatever!" It's just so goddamn depressing to see relationships fall apart because of political differences, and I'm afraid of upsetting or pissing off people around me because my political views don't personally align with theirs.
 
My betta passed away. 😔

It's been coming for a while, he's been slowing down since August. I'd already made peace with the idea we were losing him but it's sad all the same.
Sorry for your loss
 
Weekends being my only lie in were cut short when my sister decides to ring me several times 7am ish, and was more angry me not picking up then caring about me sleeping in.
Another fustrating bit when trying to get the facetime to work so she can speak to my mum instead, while I left to wake up, take headache pills and wash up to try and relax me.
She also thinks theres loads of jobs out there, or think it be easy for me to get a manager job when I told her last I checked there were only teaching, gardening, and managering jobs. Not caring if that is what I want to proceed with.

My ginger cat Taishi has also been pretty sick today, I'm just hoping the sick is just bringing out the worse and that she will be better.
If I worry too much it will go to head and I will just continue to freak out at little things.

Because my sleep has been ruined, I had a cat nap but I wasn't happy with this because I don't have many days before that training. And I won't be able to handle doing anything afterwards. There's also the fact that I would have work in the morning, rush to get buses to travel there, I've had to ask what will be happening about lunch because the training is over six hours, travel back home - rinse and repeat.
Though Tuesdays are more harder, because of my evening class, meaning after training, that day I get another bus to go to class and I have no idea if they will let me in that early.
 
I feel like some people are gonna blame me for not voting for Harris in the 2024 election (even though I didn't vote for Trump, either.) In fact, I didn't vote for anybody in this election because I'm not even registered to vote. Regardless of who won the election, one side is gonna throw a hissy for about it because the candidate THEY rooted for didn't win and the other side is gonna be like "haha, in your face! we won! suck it, losers!" It's like if you vote for Trump, you're a terrible person, if you vote for Harris, you're a terrible person, if you don't vote at all, you're a terrible person.

I like to follow the latest news on politicians and all things politics on the news and stuff out of curiosity. I'm lowkey afraid of even mentioning my political views to anybody because I'm pretty sure people are gonna tell me crap like "you must be a (blank) supporter!" or "you're just a racist/sexist/homophobe/transphobe/whatever!" It's just so goddamn depressing to see relationships fall apart because of political differences, and I'm afraid of upsetting or pissing off people around me because my political views don't personally align with theirs.
I agree. I’m especially angrier at those who bully the politically neutral (moderates and those who are indifferent) than those who bully the other side. The two candidates running for president has given us a good reason not to vote for them. Yet these spoiled brats would say “if you don’t vote for my candidate, then you’re evil”. I am deeply offended when someone says that being neutral is evil, and that anyone who doesn’t agree with them contradicts reality. This is not just bullying and discrimination. It’s also contributing to the polarization.
 
One of my brother's dogs has been really sick for a few days, he finally took her to the vet this morning, they weren't helpful at all though. Still don't know what's even causing it, or how to help her, besides to try and keep her hydrated. Don't know what my brother is planning to do next, but I really hope she pulls through. Seeing her like this terrifys me.
 
My inability to get a non restaurant job. I've been in this industry for nearly 13 years and have been serving since 2019. While I do love serving, I don't love it as a full time job. I just wish I could land a decent hourly job while serving once or twice a week. :/
 
My parents think I’m diabetic 🫠
I’ve been drinking an insane amount of water lately. Which is what concerns them, because I rarely drink water. I don’t like water that much, so I guess I can see how me suddenly drinking tons of it concerns them. I have to get bloodwork done to determine whether or not I have it. I’m just scared 😭 This has been bothering me for a few days now. :’)
 
Having to work a physically-demanding job whilst sick is making me feel like absolute ****. Even though I've been consistently taking my antidepressants, I'm still cranky as hell. Yet I feel like I'm pulling most of the weight in my department, especially when I'm working with that coworker. Ugh.

Some other stuff is bothering me, like being unable to talk with my friends and partner because I spend my free time sleeping. And I still hate everything. 🥲
 
One of my brother's dogs has been really sick for a few days, he finally took her to the vet this morning, they weren't helpful at all though. Still don't know what's even causing it, or how to help her, besides to try and keep her hydrated. Don't know what my brother is planning to do next, but I really hope she pulls through. Seeing her like this terrifys me.
I hate to update this a day after.

She passed away this morning. I got to give her a scratch behind the ear before she took her last breath. I never do well with deaths of animals, but this one hits particularly hard. She was my little buddy, always followed me around, took walks with and sneaked a tiny bit of meat to while cooking. She loved to chase rabbits, play tug-o-war, roll in fresh laundry and belly rubs. She wasn't my dog, but the love there was all the same. I'm going to miss her a lot.

This happened so suddenly. I hate that we never found out what exactly happened. If she caught something or if it was somekind of organ failure.
 
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