I really wish my study group would just stop talking about politics every. single. day, either it be text or every time we call and do work together. I swear, it’s everyday of the week and they don’t go a single day in that group chat without talking about politics and it’s always so negative. Conveniently, the class is about history, and we have to stop and answer a question or read a section from a chapter and they just go off on either a 20-text rampage or a half an hour talk about their opinion of politics. I just go kind of quiet and I even had to pretend to agree with them (even though I really don’t ugh) and they know it. They’re just like after a while, “Oh hi, Lightspring, how are you doing“? really sweetly, but I know the real them, or at least one of them.
The thing is, if they want to talk about politics with just the 2 of them, I’m totally cool with that, leave me out of it. I couldn’t possibly disagree with them or ask them to stop because they’re the type of radical people to hound you about your opinion and I’ve had to lie about my political tendencies directly. Why can’t we just answer questions smoothly without having to delve into politics every 5 seconds? I can’t just leave the group, they think I’m friends with them but on my part that is far from the truth. Let’s be real, they’re the friends, and I’m just the tag along, which I am completely fine about it, I just don’t want anything to do with that anymore.
Especially one of them, who I’ve known earlier, has been known by my friends and even her closest friend (who I was friends with) as extremely annoying, manipulative, and a liar. She’s the type of person who I thought I could probably confide with with my issues, but then she would be there the next second to blurt it out to the whole entire class with me watching. She has gone around telling people secrets I thought she would keep in front of my face and then pretending like it isn’t hurtful. Today, she was like, “You’re just so cute, Lightspring. Like, everything you do is just so cute.” Thanks, but I don’t think that’s a compliment?
The other person I haven’t known too long, though has made it known that she hates
for no good reason just to hate, and it kind of hurts considering every time she bashes those groups, whether through texting or I’m there on call with her, that she bashes half of me. I may look Asian in appearance, but I’m also half white with one white male parent and a lot of people tend to just ignore that.
The point is, I’m just scared of being canceled on their social media (since that’s a trend now) and I don’t want others to find about my political opinion. It’s that simple, why make a big deal out of it?