What's Bothering You?

[xSuperMario64x]

the combination of procrastination and executive dysfunction here is truly a recipe for disaster and sleep deprivation.

it's already 3am and I'm still not nearly done with this essay, I'm so done w this bs lol

 

[Millysaurusrexjr]

no snacks. and I've been procrastinating on something all day

 

[Violet Witch]

I just don't like the fact we're about to head into June, it's my least favourite month of the year alongside my least favourite season... summer.

 

[Alienfish]

random headache, woot.

also royal fail being slow lol.

 

[Chris]

I've five days to redraft a 5,000 word excerpt and accompanying materials.

 

[Antonio]

I've five days to redraft a 5,000 word excerpt and accompanying materials.

That sounds absolutely exhausting and I just can't see myself doing something like that. You have my respect and my absolute fear.

 

[Dunquixote]

Still depressed.

I am also disturbed i keep having dreams about my band director from high school. I’d like to forget about high school, ty dreams.

Also, am bothered by how I colored and outlined the french fries in my drawing. I think for the most part they turned out better than I thought, but knowing where I messed up and how the positioning and shape was off is making me doubt that.

 

[xSuperMario64x]

now that I'm done w school stuff I have a problem, and I foresaw this but I don't know how to deal with it. I've spent the last semester, and to an extent the last four years, being constantly depressed and stressed out of my mind and hating myself, and now..... I'm out of school?

I know im just taking a gap year and I'll be back next fall, so i should be able to take it easy and be happy. but my mind is, obviously, still in stressed school mode and because I've gotten so used to that kind of life/psyche I'm having a really difficult time actually relaxing and feeling happy. I've gotten no satisfaction from finishing my schoolwork. idk maybe that'll change once I actually get my diploma and I can hold it in my hand. I also know it's literally been less than 12 hours since I submitted that assignment so perhaps my mind just needs to be like".........oh wait we're done???"


I am trying and will continue to try to do whatever it takes to break myself out of this vicious cycle of **** mental health, but who knows how long it'll take. in the meantime I really need to try to be gentle with myself for once, and work on rebuilding my motivation and happiness.

 

[Xara]

the post tbt event depression is hitting hard my bros. suppose it’s my fault for using it as a distraction these past few weeks lol.

 

[Holla]

Well I officially move on Saturday. I start moving some of my bigger things tomorrow after work since my parents will be around to help.

At the same time I’ve literally had no time to pack anything. I also still work tomorrow and Friday most of the day so. >.<

I’m also just about as nervous as excited so it’s not exactly a good overall feeling right now.

 

[_Rainy_]

I messed with this spot on my nose for 5 seconds without thinking and now I’m paying for it. I’m also obsessing over something and I don’t understand why I do this sometimes especially when it really doesn’t matter.

 

[deana]

Spoiler: just another covid rant

My province released their reopening plan today and I'm pretty annoyed with it, because permitting indoor social gatherings (even with 1 other household) seems to be on the absolute lowest priority list Indoor dining at restaurants with up to 6 people (not from the same household) is included in step 2, but indoor gatherings in private spaces are still not allowed until step 3.

All of my friends and all of my family live hours away from me. And the restrictions on seeing anyone indoors makes it really impossible for me to visit with them for any extended period of time, which is what I would normally do in the past, go there and stay for 2-3 days. I have been waiting for indoor gatherings to be allowed since November I got to see my mom for 1 tiny moment of an outdoor visit but haven't seen any of my other family since last summer. It's been even longer since I've seen any of my friends.

 

[Millysaurusrexjr]

decided 2 delete

 

[Dunquixote]

snip

I am dealing exactly the same thing except with a former friend as well as some other stuff. I feel like at this point I have let it consume me but there is no escape since I have OCD (been diagnosed) and I obsess over stuff more than “normal.” I just wanted to let you know that I feel your pain and I know how bad this feeling is and I’m sorry that you’re experiencing this. My dms are always open if you need to vent; no pressure and sorry if that is weird.

 

[Reginald Fairfield]

I should be asleep, but this was in the recommended:

 

[Toska]

Today marks a sad day in my life, and honestly I’m struggling to be motivated at this point.

 

[Chris]

I've had sharp stomach pain for about an hour and can't stand up straight. Please go away I've work to do.

 

[oak]

Uterus talk

Spoiler

I pay good money to have my uterus turned off and for the past couple weeks it feels like my medication isn't working. I've had cramps everyday and that heavy gross nauseous feeling in my gut. My endometriosis is probs fighting back and the doctor acts like it's just something I have to live with forever.

 

[mogyay]

is omad just an excuse for me to continue to have seriously disordered eating??? yes probably.

im so exhausted and im so hungry and i hate ive become this person so obsessed with how i look, id never judge anyone else so idk why i judge myself so much

 

[oak]

is omad just an excuse for me to continue to have seriously disordered eating??? yes probably.

im so exhausted and im so hungry and i hate ive become this person so obsessed with how i look, id never judge anyone else so idk why i judge myself so much

I'm so sorry mogyay, I hate seeing you struggle with this. Is there anyway I could help you or give some support? If not I'm always here to vent!