What's Bothering You?

Feeling really tired right now and some sprinkles of self-hatred.
 
this last week has been really crazy and stressful for me. I won't go into anything personal, but I basically ended up breaking it off with my SO because I realized that he was being really toxic and he was draining me constantly. I hate that it had to happen this way but I'm trying to save my sanity here. I already have enough to deal with, I don't need his toxicity too. luckily my mom and some of my friends have kept me sane this whole time (most notably @/Shellzilla_515) and I appreciate them helping me get through this week.

so for a week I've been super nervous/anxious, I haven't been sleeping well, I have almost no appetite, and I've been getting guilt-tripped by my SO bc I told him I needed alone time and he said "that's not fair to me" multiple times. I really hope this next week is better. I'm not completely coming out of my hiatus, but I may peek in once or twice a day to check out what my friends are up to here. I've missed yall.
 
well I'm hurt, I tried to set a boundary and I got argued with. all I asked was "hey can you stop talking about this topic? I'm uncomfortable with this."
 
idk why I let the littlest things bother me. I went to the post office to ship something internationally to my mom, and I had to fill out a lil customs form for the package, but it was super hot in there and lots of people so I was kinda rushing. I get up to the desk and she starts inputting the information and then she stops and asks me to clarify the address "is this an S?" and I said "no, it's a 5", and she says "okay" in the most judge-y tone???? It was like she was calling me an idiot for accidentally making my 5 look like an S. At least that's how it felt. Anyway social anxiety is annoying and I still have a whole other box I need to ship to my mom so yay
 
I relate… I filled out a box wrong by accident. I accidentally swapped the return address and the shipping address. I wasn’t used to filling out boxes myself since I almost always print shipping labels, but I had to fill out the box a few times. The lady got smart and said “in the United States this is how we do it” and started explaining in a very condescending tone. It was embarrassing because there were people in line and it just made me feel dumb. Some people just shouldn’t be in customer service.
 
I relate… I filled out a box wrong by accident. I accidentally swapped the return address and the shipping address. I wasn’t used to filling out boxes myself since I almost always print shipping labels, but I had to fill out the box a few times. The lady got smart and said “in the United States this is how we do it” and started explaining in a very condescending tone. It was embarrassing because there were people in line and it just made me feel dumb. Some people just shouldn’t be in customer service.
Post office workers in general seem to be a bit uppity 😭 I just try to remind myself that they likely deal with a lot of difficult people so it's probably nothing personal. Definitely gonna look in to filling out forms beforehand, apparently now they have a QR code that they can scan.
 
It seems like everything is complicated all the time but only certain things are allowed to be so.
 
Why is health insurance so frustrating to use. You pay into it then when you finally need to use it they denied the claim. I keep trying to get my mom her ct scan but this is the second time they denied it so maybe we can get it done next week. The place that you get them done only does this scan on Monday’s. I just wish the process was easier especially with things that are time sensitive.
 
and I've been getting guilt-tripped by my SO bc I told him I needed alone time and he said "that's not fair to me" multiple times.
The fact that he guilt-tripped you made me even more certain you did the right thing here. Saying "it's not fair" like you took his candy bag and gave to someone else sounds like he couldn't deal with there being two partners in a relationship that need to make some compromises(Not trying to belittle anyone, but just to make an example that is not really a good thing to say...). I really wish the best for your recovery and I'm very sorry you had to deal with that toxicity. Everyone need alone time more or less, and you deserve the best ❤️
 
new guy started in the warehouse near the end of my shift. i don't know if he's a volunteer like me or being paid, but i don't particularly care considering that he casually, and loudly, used the f slur as an insult, and the guy training him said nothing. fat L to the people who say homophobia is dead and that nobody uses those words in a derogatory way anymore.
 
new guy started in the warehouse near the end of my shift. i don't know if he's a volunteer like me or being paid, but i don't particularly care considering that he casually, and loudly, used the f slur as an insult, and the guy training him said nothing. fat L to the people who say homophobia is dead and that nobody uses those words in a derogatory way anymore.
You should report this behaviour if you haven't already.
 
You should report this behaviour if you haven't already.
i might, but the guy he said it to is actually a senior-ish staff member, so his lack of a reaction doesn't fill me with confidence rip. if the person i usually get along with isn't back on wednesday though, i might approach sam about it; especially if the guy is in again. i'm still surprised he said it with his whole chest tbh.
 
Going to appointments complaints
Man I know healthcare workers are overworked but why are they so dang rude everytime I come to a clinic. Every single appointment I've ever had, including before covid, the front desk workers are so mean they make me scared lmao. I was talking to the receptionist about paperwork and she rolled her eyes at me over and over again and I started to panic and she was asking me questions and I couldn't think of answers cause I knew she was annoyed. Then she told me to come back when I have an appointment instead of just questions and I told her my appointment was in a half an hour, I just showed up early to check on some paperwork.. She ended up saying "sorry" real quick at the end when I was going to sit in the waiting room. I think she saw the anxiety in my face.
 
graham norton, a gay man, was bullied off of twitter because jkr can't keep her transphobic mouth shut and effectively sent her hate mob after him simply because he said, "talk to trans people/experts, not me". wish someone would make her account disappear.
 
I just want ONE normal day. One day where I'm not told how I'm making my mom depressed (by literally doing nothing wrong) or getting yelled at and lied to by my parents. One day where the people in my classes (along with my brother) actually pull their weight and stop making me do everything for them because I have a hard time saying no. One day where people learn to keep their mouth shut and stop making offensive comments. One day where it can just be good, and I don't have to worry about being perfect or watch everything I say or do. I'm tired of it. At this point, I'm just counting down the days till I graduate high school and I can leave this all behind.

And liking cartoons is not a bad thing! I wish the room didn't turn dead silent every time I make an Amphibia or TOH reference.
 
starting to get really annoyed with three's awful service. i know it's not necessarily the fault of the people running the online chat, but for god's sake. september 28th, some guy tells me a refund has been issued. i wait two weeks, since that's the maximum their website claims it takes. nothing. i speak to some woman; she tells me to wait 48 hours. still nothing. what is actually the problem?
 
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