What's Bothering You?

It is actually freezing outside :/ I know fall gets cooler and eventually ends... But can't the freeze wait? The house is cold so the heater is on now.
Also just feeling horrible and I know it's due to the temp and seasonal change.. but still.
 
Reddit's userbase has to be a collection of the most miserable bitter human beings to ever live, whose only talent is to spread hate. Truely pathetic. 😐
 
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it started way earlier this morning where i think i had a nightmare where i was choking? i suddenly woke up at around 1:30am coughing and choking really badly, after only being able to fall fully asleep around 12am. it just kinda set my day into tizzy to be honest and i ended up dealing with a bad headache all day (maybe lack of sleep or just from all the coughing earlier in the day) 🤕 i've had something to eat and some medicine now, but dang it felt like i was fighting for my life today
 
I've been feeling unwell for too long.. I don't know what's going on but I can't afford a doctor so all I can really do is sit through it and hope it eventually stops. I've been taking medicine but I stopped because I don't actually need it right now? It's for something really specific that's partly related to my problems. Worried I'll end up needing it again though because things haven't really returned to normal.
If you want you can DM me and I can give you some basic guidance if you like! Nobody deserves to suffer just because they can't afford healthcare.
 
my best friend is struggling a lot right now and my heart is aching for him 😞 I tend to be highly empathic so I'm really feeling that pain myself right now. sometimes being an empath is difficult, but I do it because I care about my friends 🥺

and I've been crying a lot lately because... I'm just so overwhelmed. so many things to do and not nearly enough mental energy to process any of them. but I always have this anxious energy and I feel like I need to get this stuff figured out right now, so I can't even relax because I feel so anxious because I'm not taking care of the things that are overwhelming me. and I can only do things like draw or play games for a short while before they become too overwhelming. lately I've only been able to handle watching random youtube videos, and sometimes even they don't provide enough stimulation to distract from my anxiety (or they also become overwhelming, which is great).

I could barely participate in this Halloween event and I'm so disheartened by that. this event seemed like it was really fun and there was a lot to do. and Halloween is my favourite holiday, I really wanted to get into the holiday spirit. but I've been so exhausted and overwhelmed, I barely had the energy to make some last-minute submissions today. once I get my tokens and collectibles I'll probably return to my hiatus, I just don't have it in me to be social right now....

also it's absolutely freezing in this room, I'm actually shivering. I should probably grab my heated blanket, but I'm at my desk right now and it's difficult for me to use it at my desk. I guess I can still try though.

this sucks 😭
 
My cat is so upset she wants to go outside but its Halloween and she is a black cat.

It's getting dark already and there is people out trick or treating :(

She keeps meowing really sadly to be let out :( If only people weren't so cruel to black cats
I’m very comforted to know that you aren’t letting her out tonight. It’s definitely what’s best for her. Just give her extra love and treats ❤️
 
I have a paper due tomorrow and I can't find the motivation to do any work (including doing the assigned readings). I think I need to change majors because I'm just now realizing my major is very philosophy-heavy and I'm not too interested in that.
 
i have an F in history and will probably have a C or D in english tomorrow bc i couldn’t write 20 lines analyzing irony in a small poem. this isn’t going to look good to my colleges, luckily i had better grades last year which was the most important year.
 
  • Spent 6 hours in an animal ER this weekend
  • Caught a very awful cold the next day and had to spend the rest of the weekend and beginning of week recovering
  • Am now playing catch up with work I couldn't do when sick
  • I have exams later this week
 
Yet again trying to get in touch with my Rheumatology Care Team is impossible. Phoned again today to hear another voicemail which basically says: I will not be available until November 2 between 12 - 1pm. I mean, come on, I'm in agony and I can barely walk because of an all body arthritis flare up. I've had to cancel an appointment I had tomorrow with my Occupational Therapist because my feet are that swollen I can't even get any of my shoes on. I've waited since May for that appointment. I was really looking forward to the TBT Halloween event (I missed is last year due to personal circumstances), but couldn't participate in anything this year because the pain is too much and I can barely even hold a pen. I don't think my Rheumatologist realises how much pain I'm in, despite numerous tests stating the conditions I have.
 
in an hour and 3 minutes, it’ll officially be two years since my zeva passed away. 730 days later, and i still don’t know how my heart didn’t stop when hers did. i still don’t know how to put my grief into words. i don’t know if i ever will.

two years, and i’m still in the parking lot of the emergency animal hospital she died at. i still don’t know how to leave.
 
in an hour and 3 minutes, it’ll officially be two years since my zeva passed away. 730 days later, and i still don’t know how my heart didn’t stop when hers did. i still don’t know how to put my grief into words. i don’t know if i ever will.

two years, and i’m still in the parking lot of the emergency animal hospital she died at. i still don’t know how to leave.
Where’s that hug react when I need it? I know this feeling so well, and I am so sorry 😢 losing my fat man Fry this year was the same thing for me. I’m always here for you if you need to talk ❤️💞🫂
 
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