still feeling so tired and fatigued. it's even worse because there's this little creeping voice in my head that's trying to say "you have no reason to be so tired, you haven't done anything, you're just being lazy".
I do have a reason to be tired. I just came out of a nearly month and a half long hypomanic episode. I had to go into the emergency room earlier this week because I was so distressed and unstable. I'm still pretty unstable, mentally but mostly emotionally, because I haven't even started my med change yet. dealing with such severe cases of mental health episodes is incredibly draining and exhausting, I wish more people understood that. it's so hurtful to tell someone who deals with mental illnesses that they're being lazy and have no reason to be tired. it's invalidating and, quite frankly, very rude.
thankfully I've gotten much better at validating myself and my own experiences, though I still struggle sometimes. but trust me, if I could get up and start doing stuff as early as possible, then I definitely would. I don't like to lie around. but I just really, really need the rest.