What's Bothering You?

[Paperboy012305]

I honestly feel like I'm one of the last users on TBT people think about. As they never mention me anywhere, they don't think I'm funny, they don't DM/PM me unless it's about my birthday, art commissions or collectible offers. They all see me as: "Oh, this user exists.. Okay, moving on."

Another thing is that I don't participate in too many sections in events due to me being less skilled at it, or I'm too lazy to even participate in it.
Worse of all, I belong in the group who is still active on TBT after many of years, and I confirmed twice that I don't wanna do the recent Halloween event of 2024, whereas everyone else that I consider in that group is doing it.
This makes me feel as if I have to do it, but the requirements are what's holding me back.

I also don't DM any users on a regular basis, not even saying Happy Birthday back to them.
For the former, I don't really see a point, and for the latter I always wait until late in the day to say Happy Birthday, but then I forget...

Let's not forget how I acted in the Discord Server back in August 2020, May of 2024 and the Diversity event in June of this year. You guys must not have liked me then to have my reputation ruined across the whole site.

If you guys just don't like me, then say so...

 

[axaniao]

im so sick of my parents controlling me. i am literally a legal adult yet im not allowed to use discord and i had a secret backup phone i was using to access it and i got that taken away and mom told me if i was caught bypassing it again i wouldn't have a phone anymore. im SO sick of it i don't know what to do i don't think they should be allowed to do this but my parents said since I live with them i have to do what they say. i don't have anywhere to move to and I don't have a job or drivers license i don't know what to do

i have a limited amount of ways to contact my friends now and i had to break up with my boyfriend over it because we didn't think it would work out this way and im so upset to think about it because everything would be relatively fine if i didn't have to deal with this!! and if i get caught on any of these sites talking to them I'll probably get my phone taken away too, so that's great. god im so frustrated

 

[VanitasFan26]

Please do not go to McDonald's there is an e coli outbreak going on.

 

[Midoriya]

Deleted.

 

[pottercrossing]

I could not sleep at all last night because I had a high fever and my throat was burning. The longest period I was able to sleep was thirty minutes before I decided to give up around 5 a.m. I had to miss Thanksgiving dinner, and I'll probably have to miss my rehearsals tomorrow.

Also, it is currently a quarter to midnight and I still can't sleep...

Guess what's happening again gang I'm so done

 

[Shawna]

Please do not go to McDonald's there is an e coil outbreak going on.

Yep, I heard about that. I hope it clears up soon. >_<

 

[Autumn247]

I am worried about the election.

 

[Psydye]

^Same, honestly.

 

[VanitasFan26]

Yep, I heard about that. I hope it clears up soon. >_<

Yeah I've seen what e coli does do to the body on the show Forensic Files it's really scary

 

[Kitsuragi]

Someone I was best friends with for a not insignificant amount of time is getting married this Saturday and didn't invite me, didn't even tell me, didn't give me an explanation of why I'm not invited. I can kind of guess why, but the fact that there was no "hey what's up" is... well, you can imagine, it sucks. A lot. I found out through one of my other best friends who was like "hey are you going to X wedding this Saturday" and I said no bc I wasnt invited and didn't know it was happening, and they immediately went "oh my god I'm so sorry I had no idea you weren't invited wtf?"

So yeah. That stings a lot. **** that guy and **** his stupid wedding.

 

[.: Meri :.]

I try not to complain too much and to be grateful that things aren't worse and to push on through, but I am just. so worn down at this point. I don't know what the universe wants from me. I just need things to finally turn around and look up for us again so badly. I'm so tired of all of this and I'm at the point where I'm terrified every time one of us gets a phone call or text in case it's another problem, another complication, another thing to worry about. I'm so tired of toughing things out and I haven't even had time to properly decompress from the last several Things before another one has popped up

 

[Chronos314_XD]

Sometimes I feel like nobody cares what I have to say. It's hard to see myself as a somebody when the world around me makes me feel like such a nobody.

 

[Doo]

I really wish I wasn’t autistic. I just want to belong for once, I want to have a chance

 

[ShinyDungeoneer]

I really wish I wasn’t autistic. I just want to belong for once, I want to have a chance

as a fellow autistic person, I can relate. It's hard to belong when your brain works differently from the rest. But, it is possible! Never give up, and eventually you'll be able to fit in! I mean, you already fit in here on TBT, so it can't be much harder IRL, right?

 

[TN4U]

TBT is probably not the best place to ask for advice, but…

For those that don’t know, I’m also a fellow user with ASD. Social interactions have always made me feel uncomfortable, more so when it’s with people I don’t know in real life. I’ve basically grown up to become an introvert, both due to this and my personal embarrassment about the organizational state/cleanliness of our house (most of which I cannot control). Most of the time when I bring it up with older people I trust, I’m not given much advice on how to make my situation better, as I cannot easily move out due to my lack of income and having no friends to room with.

While I do appreciate my parents providing me with many things I like in life, my therapist has pretty much determined that my socially awkward behavior is partly to blame on them for not resolving the need of cleaning the house. Believe me, I’ve offered my assistance several times in the past, but my mom keeps telling me not to and that she’ll do it herself. Problem with that, however, is that she barely keeps her promises and refuses to believe that she has a problem.

This disorder bothers me so much, but it’s the one thing my mom refuses to acknowledge. My dad brought it up with me today without her being around, and even he is thinking about seeing a therapist as he doesn’t know what to do. It’s gotten to the point where we cannot easily walk around our kitchen, living room and the hallways. There is also a bunch of stuff that belongs to my sister, and she is also a slob who’s attitude went down the drain the moment I gained my side of the house from her after moving out. Would you guys say that my immediate family members are dysfunctional? I won’t get offended if you say yes, because honestly, I want change to happen now. I’m a single man turning 25 who lost all his friends, and if I want to move on with my life, this needs to become less of an issue.

An example of my mom’s refusal to admit: One time, my dad cleaned the entire kitchen when she was out of town. After returning and seeing the result, she was livid and they started arguing. A week later, the kitchen returned to being a total wreck.

 

[Seastar]

My throat hurts a lot and I am feeling overly self-conscious and depressed.

 

[Mimi Cheems]

I'm so tired of my BPD ruining everything. Actually, correction; I'm so tired of ruining everything.
I hate having episodes. I hate taking it out on my bf when he doesn't deserve it but my brain is so used to the trauma, so used to everything being bad, that I villainize him constantly. I'm always fearing he's going to hurt me badly. Break my heart, leave me.. I had a bad meltdown yesterday. Although he's stayed with me for almost 3 years.. Idk if he wants to keep putting up with it. No matter how many therapists I've seen, the medications I've been on. I just don't see it getting better at all.. I feel like there's nothing for me in life anymore. My little brother joined the military, my parents don't understand and I can't ever talk to them about it. My sister has her own issues to deal with. I have friends online, but.. I have nobody to turn to irl. I feel so alone..
I want to think things will get better and that I just had a bad day.. but when I've been doing so good lately only to crumble again.. it just feels like I'll always be this way.

 

[Clock]

All of this news and stuff in the future is making me feel anxious and a bit depressed. I know i shouldn’t let that stuff take a toll on my mental health, but still…

 

[Dim]

AI scares me. I never considered myself good as an artist, but I always wanted to eventually go into an art career. I wonder if going the way will be a dead end...

I just don't know if I'd be good for anything else, yet I don't want to be stuck at my current job because I can't do it much longer. I'm just feeling so hopeless and depressed again.

 

[KCourtnee]

I'm making crap money these days. I'm currently a server and have been in the restaurant industry for almost 12 years. It's all I've ever done. I've been trying to find a BOH restaurant job that pays decently so I can actually have consistent money. I do love serving but when it's your entire income, it can be stressful. I've been thinking of trying to serve at a fine dining restaurant because THAT can be excellent money. I just wanna have fun with my money and buy all the fandom things and pokemon/animal crossing plushies that my little heart desires.