What's Bothering You?

I’ve been still taking a hiatus from twitter, but the genocide, ethnic cleansing still is on my mind even though I’m trying my best to take care of my health first. Like I was working on my island journal earlier, and some of my screenshots gave me bad vibes like it made me think of the colonist and illegal settlements. This game has nothing to do with it and I never thought of this before event though when I first got New Horizons, I had long taken the class in college that made me aware of what is going on.

I’m doing okay overall; I’m just troubled by this and being low energy and burnt out.

No comments or replies here or on discord please.
 
Sometimes I delete my own socials at random because I've convinced myself nobody I've talked with would notice so it doesn't matter. If I don't want to keep a profile, I delete it and feel nothing lost.

Today somebody found me on another platform and said they looked for me all over the place because they were worried.

To which it surprised me. I thought 'why would you ever look for me'. I guess, in my own head, I deemed myself as unimportant and I detach sometimes.

It was a small gesture, but that message today might end up rewiring how I think. Even if just a little bit.
 
I’m kinda bummed kinda mad at myself for my delicious designs not getting accepted. Even though I thought I fixed it in time. Maybe I should have @ instead of just quoting.
Edit because it was now accepted. Thanks so much I was so worried I did something wrong.
 
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Crying because of work. I'm starting to hate my job, but I just got here so there's no point in quitting yet. I didn't think one of my coworkers could upset me this much. A bunch of other crap is making me feel worse. I don't wanna go back.

EDIT: I was really upset when I wrote this and there are some parts of my job I don't like, but I wouldn't say I hate it. I talked to my step-mom (who works in the same place as me), and she mentioned that the other employees in my department don't like this coworker and that I should talk to my manager about her. I don't really want to because I can't help but feel that it's my fault for how my coworker treated me today. Still, I'm pissed at her.
 
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I keep finding things I want to post here, but parts are inappropriate, or I can see the discussion shifting a certain way.

One example being a video on people buying up Victorian style homes, one that had a beautiful spiral staircase, and badly turning them into open concept modern farmhouses. The video contains strong language and an ad for an adult product.
 
i dyed my hair because i wanted to get rid of my highlights that i got a year ago. i had dark hair already so i was like “i’ll just box dye it a color close to my roots, it won’t be that much of a change, right?” but IT CAME OUT LOOKING BLACK IM SCREWED

worried that it looks unnatural 😭😭 my parents are going to be so mad because they were against me doing this in the first place.
 
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Today reminded me how much I hate my current job with a firey passion.

Before I even leave my house, the bosses ex is messaging me about buying milk and I was debating weather or not to get it or leave them high and dry (hadn't paid me back last time for milk) and decided to get it since it would make me later (by the end of this shift I di get paid for both sets of milk, after asking again.)

When I get in, I see nothing from the other day was actually done.
Alot of washing up was left to dry, but then there were dishes and cups that needed to be washed. (We don't have a dishwasher, instead we have a sink that decided to make these awful noises, either a shrill noise or a very loud irritating thing that if we turn the water on for a bit sometimes it stops, sometimes it makes it worse)
Bins werent emptied, left open and one bin bag upstairs somehow had a hole in the bottom.
Blinds were getting tangled in the halloween decorations, as well as a spoon hanging there????
Not even kidding, look
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help me
There were other silly lil things to do, as well as one customers order before my colleague comes in, I rarely see this one.
He asks me if there's anything he could do, I did most things, but said he could wash the other stuff leftover from yesterday, and he instead went and made himself breakfast...0_0
I am impatient as I am waiting for my shift to end, so I did it. There wasnt much to do.
Made a list of items were missing as per usual.

I took a pastry since I hadn't ate this morning, and made a hot chocolate and left once the boss arrived.
Madness, madness, I think I need Mix and pierrots help with this place, I really do.
 
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