What's Bothering You?

Our neighbors had a huge mastiff/German Shepherd mix with a history of attacking small animals. One day, our cat slipped out the door at the same time they had left the fence open. That dog almost mauled our cat.
Oh my goodness, I am so sorry to hear that. ;-;
 
Oh dear. Here I am back again already. Just got off from texting a friend, and ooo boy I am not happy with what's happened to her.

I feel angry tbh. I wasn't there, and I'm kind of glad I wasn't because I'd have gotten so mad (probably overwhelmed due to that smidge of social anxiety) and I'd probably have hit these people which is something I absolutely hate doing and always have control over so I've never done it before, but it most likely would have manifested here. Btw I don't condone physical violence, in case that was unclear

At a new years eve party my friend was at these two guys both came up to her, at separate times, to ask her out. For context we know them both and they go to the same school as us. Not a problem, but they were being so creepy about it. One of them was going on about how he'd be a "good boy" for her, then proceeded to follow her around for the rest of the party. He's also the brother of another guy who has a crush on her but got turned down at last year's party because my friend does not experience romantic attraction. I thought that he was reformed and trying to make a difference from how disgusting the comments he made towards women were last year, but apparently not. Like he literally said he could r*** a legal adult and she'd be the one to blame because he's a minor.

The other one who asked her out had literally come out of a relationship with a different girl. And he said he's liked my friend for ages, which means he went into a relationship with a girl who he didn't like. Which wtf. And the way he asked her was to ask if she wanted to go outside for a smoke so they could talk, which is absolutely vile. Both him and her are both underage. These people know my friend has extremely self-destructive tendencies and instead of trying to help her to not do things that will negatively effect her physical and mental health , they try and lead her further into it.

Idk maybe I'm blowing things out of proportion, but I just can't believe some people. I'll probably delete this comment later, but for now I just need to vent out my anger with the whole situation. I have an overblown sense of justice when it comes to my friends and relatives, so maybe some of the things I said aren't even that bad. Idk, but I'm really frustrated.

She has a low self esteem that stems from severe mental health problems (I won't get into the specifics) so she doesn't put up boundaries with people, and laughs along with things even though she could feel insurmountablely uncomfortable. So most people I know think that just because she doesn't put up boundaries that she doesn't need them, but she absolutely deserves to have her basic boundaries as just a human being respected. I always feel like I have to tell her that if she feels sad, uncomfortable, or anything at all she can tell me and I'll get the people who've overstepped to not do it again, however politely or curtly she'd prefer. She's told me she appreciates it because no one else actually lets her know they have her back and'll take a stand and that makes me sad. Why don't people see that she isn't just a plaything that they can do anything they want with? She needs support from people, but they just take advantage of her easy-going nature.

Sorry for the long rant lol. If the sentences doesn't make sense it's because my headache is still pounding on my brain like it's a drum
 
First day back at work today. Woke-up at 3am, eventually got up at 3:45am. It's going to be a long day.

My PT had me doing deadlifts for the first time yesterday. My upper back aches like hell. Probably linked to why I can't sleep - can't get comfortable!
I dozed off. Woke-up at 8:33am. Work starts 8:30am. 🤦‍♂️

Arrived 40 minutes late to be told the boiler is still out. So no hot water or heating and it is 1C (33.8F) outside!
 
Had my sister messaging me today at work to ask me what my signing in details for Facebook are. Something to do with trying to communicate with our dad, a dad I must say who I haven't seen or heard from in over 15 years.
(The only reason I have my dad on Facebook in the first place, is that months ago, my sister did have access to my account and requested him as a friend, which he accepted but never messaged me at all and I don't plan to either.)
I told her I don't know my password off by heart. I told her the best thing is to wait till I'm home for me to sign out and sign in again to make sure, because I have several different passwords, and didn't want her knowing them all. As I did try and sign out on my phone, but once I tried signing in again, it automatically signed me back in without me trying a password. Her response: 'So you can't tell me now'
I said again, I dunno, and I am at work. Then she told me 'stop being useless, think'

And as my other coworker and boss came in, she started trying to ring me SEVERAL TIMES as I'm dealing with customers.
I had to turn my phone off. It was not the end of the world for this information, and then to say that above just got me angry, so when I was about to leave I turned my phone on to go off at her via message and then left the shop; knowing full well my phone will have no wifi connection while I walk home.
 
When I have certain problems I struggle to discuss them at all because I get sick with anxiety. I have some bothering me right now and I am not sure what to do. I guess I should be glad I am not impulsive because then this would all go horribly wrong, but the anxiety can get excessive. One of these has been going on for years and definitely not getting better.
 
just having an awful day today. my eyes are burning because I sobbed at home and sobbed all the way to work. I've had a mild headache for a while and I think it's getting worse. I was ten minutes late for work bc I suck at keeping track of time and I forgot that snow exists. I haven't eaten at all today (not even a big deal bc I have no appetite anyhow). and I'm just feeling mindless and scrambled today.

I am a miserable bug, I just want to go home and go to bed 😞
 
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