What's Bothering You?
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Dunquixote
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I know i just apologized for posting in here so much (or i thought i did). but i have to post one more. i need to figure out a better way to cope with anxiety and find a way to forget stuff or move on. i am letting it affect me too much and for longer than it should and it is draining so much energy. talking to my counselor about it only aggravates me more. i don’t like meditation but may need to try that again. idk what to do. until i find a way; idk how to explain how anxiety works to friends that think that i choose to be (or former friends - i’m talking about personal offline friends). explaining what it is every time i have a panic attack is one difficult when i am having trouble breathing when i have panic attacks and just in general when i am not having an attack.
lI really wish i could not worry. i am so tired from everything today and in general. i wish i could fit in and be normal and not make everyone pause and go uhhh… (like i’ve done may times on this discord server and probably did earlier today elsewhere).
we are at a light but still i don’t like how my dad keeps using siri to check score of a game; he does that ro send texts and other stuff while driving and i don’t like that; i notice the weaving out of lanes gets worse than it already is when he does this
lI really wish i could not worry. i am so tired from everything today and in general. i wish i could fit in and be normal and not make everyone pause and go uhhh… (like i’ve done may times on this discord server and probably did earlier today elsewhere).
we are at a light but still i don’t like how my dad keeps using siri to check score of a game; he does that ro send texts and other stuff while driving and i don’t like that; i notice the weaving out of lanes gets worse than it already is when he does this
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Normally chatting with friends and acquaintances feels great, but it’s just making me feel overwhelmed today. I can’t entirely say why. I just feel the need for space,
Croconaw
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Hi! I’m sorry you had a terrible day. It’s okay to express your emotions. Some people just act through no fault of your own. Maybe they’re struggling with something in their life, but don’t blame yourself. I hope things get better for you!
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Hi! I’m sorry you had a terrible day. It’s okay to express your emotions. Some people just act through no fault of your own. Maybe they’re struggling with something in their life, but don’t blame yourself. I hope things get better for you!
Thank you, Croconaw. I’m crying right now.
You’re a really good person. I try to be in a good mood as much as I can, but today just hasn’t been good for me. I’ll be better tomorrow.
hakutaku
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Been so much family drama, both my grandmas are in hospital rn (thankfully they're both doing better today, and my nan's hip operation went alright), and currently stressing about university enrolment 
my passport is expired and everything requires a valid passport, which i can't get in time because the pandemic made the waitlist for passports double in size,, gonna have to call my uni on monday to make enquiries ugh
at least ive got another couple days until online enrolment actually opens i guess
my passport is expired and everything requires a valid passport, which i can't get in time because the pandemic made the waitlist for passports double in size,, gonna have to call my uni on monday to make enquiries ughat least ive got another couple days until online enrolment actually opens i guess
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i can’t help but feel like they just don’t care about me anymore??? it’s so hard to deal with, especially knowing the bond i had with them. we talked everyday for over a year. the longest i went without talking to them is unknown to me bc im 100% sure i’ve talked to them everyday since i met them. but now, they can go hours without answering me or even a few days.. it just sucks. i’m really hoping once school starts things will lighten up and we will become close again. it’s my senior year and i don’t really want to end my high school years without them by my side :c
it’s a really complicated story between us but like i said hopefully they’ll open up to me soon and we’ll have a happier bond than before. i miss them so much :,(
it’s a really complicated story between us but like i said hopefully they’ll open up to me soon and we’ll have a happier bond than before. i miss them so much :,(
Croconaw
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Today, I’ve been overthinking about a lot of things which has been stressful. I’m way too concerned with how others feel about me. I realize that I’m honestly great at giving advice, but I find it hard to take my own advice sometimes. It’s just small steps in my positivity journey, but I’m working on being comfortable in taking my own advice when necessary.
It’s difficult to know what someone actually thinks of you through a screen, but there are certain times I feel like I’m just there? Like I see groups of people who are really close friends and that’s great. It shows how great of a community it is. I’ve never had any really close friends, like my best friend of four years ghosted me long ago and I’m still not sure why. We met on a forum (not this one), but it took a toll on me for a bit. It made me realize how much being ignored hurts, it’s like being invisible, like you’re not there. At least when you’re hated, they treat you like you exist. I think being ignored is like one of the worst feelings.
Since our friendship though, I haven’t really been close to anyone since. I haven’t exactly been putting myself out there, but I try to actively participate in conversations, and I’m honestly having fun in the Camping event. I feel like part of the community, you know, but I’m just there. In real life too, like in high school, I’d see groups of friends talking, and I was just there… an outcast. I don’t mind being just a presence in the community honestly because I do get positive vibes about this place. I can tell there are lots of amazing people on here who obviously care about each other. Because if I was a presence anywhere, I’d want it to be somewhere like this.
Damn, I wrote a lot. I didn’t want it to be this long. I just wanted to express my feelings here.
It’s difficult to know what someone actually thinks of you through a screen, but there are certain times I feel like I’m just there? Like I see groups of people who are really close friends and that’s great. It shows how great of a community it is. I’ve never had any really close friends, like my best friend of four years ghosted me long ago and I’m still not sure why. We met on a forum (not this one), but it took a toll on me for a bit. It made me realize how much being ignored hurts, it’s like being invisible, like you’re not there. At least when you’re hated, they treat you like you exist. I think being ignored is like one of the worst feelings.
Since our friendship though, I haven’t really been close to anyone since. I haven’t exactly been putting myself out there, but I try to actively participate in conversations, and I’m honestly having fun in the Camping event. I feel like part of the community, you know, but I’m just there. In real life too, like in high school, I’d see groups of friends talking, and I was just there… an outcast. I don’t mind being just a presence in the community honestly because I do get positive vibes about this place. I can tell there are lots of amazing people on here who obviously care about each other. Because if I was a presence anywhere, I’d want it to be somewhere like this.
Damn, I wrote a lot. I didn’t want it to be this long. I just wanted to express my feelings here.
Flaming_Oceans
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I feel like my parents are pressuring me to do things but I can't really say "no".
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talking about passport i should go renew mine once i get paid but i really hate doing it ugghh.
also i suppose i need to pester those people about sending my order because i'm pretty sure it's been in stock for some time now lol
also i suppose i need to pester those people about sending my order because i'm pretty sure it's been in stock for some time now lol
Alienfish
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My mom asking dumb questions when I tried explaining to her a thing and I had to tell her off in public cause 1) I have no idea why that thing is as it is 2) she demanded some 54 slide powerpoint presentation about why when I obv. don't know lol
wonderwitch
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What a thoughtful and wonderful thread idea.
I know that there are worst things in the world happening, especially with all the deaths and sickness, but here’s a vent about another thing covid affected.
I’ve been seriously devoting myself to my art since 2017 after my suicide attempt as a means of therapy and for my reason for living. It’s my dream to become a professional artist and I’m nearly there.
I’ve been painting faces since then and after creating 33 of them, I’ve spent $600 to book an exhibition to exhibit my art. I have disabilities that have put me on a disability support pension, meaning I hardly have enough money to pay for necessities. It took me so long to save up $600. The exhibition was postponed more than a year because of covid, which is fine because it gave me more time to paint.
I put in months of intense exhibition preparation, which took everything out of me. (My disabilities mean I constantly have very little energy). I spent a month actively going out and spreading the word and giving flyers to strangers and I was so excited because it seemed like a lot of people were coming.
My big opening night event was postponed because of a lockdown and so all of the strangers I told about the opening night date was all for nothing and now no one knows when my opening night will be. It feels like no one will come.
I live in a border community and so across the border the other state got more restrictions, so most of my friends and family now can’t come. Since the gallery is right next to the border, I bet people even in my state will be scared to risk being stopped by the police.
I put years of my whole self and all my money into this exhibition and now it feels like it’s all for nothing.I know it’s not about the money I make, or the publicity, but I had so much hope that this would’ve launched my career as an artist.
So yeah, that’s my rant. I’m trying to keep positive because what’s wonderful is some of my extended family are travelling to come to my exhibition opening night. So even if they’re the only people who come, I’m so grateful and it’ll all be worth it to connect with them since I don’t know them very well. It’s not about the money or “fame” and it’s a huge achievement to have my first exhibition at 21 in the first place. But it felt so good to vent!
I know that there are worst things in the world happening, especially with all the deaths and sickness, but here’s a vent about another thing covid affected.
I’ve been seriously devoting myself to my art since 2017 after my suicide attempt as a means of therapy and for my reason for living. It’s my dream to become a professional artist and I’m nearly there.
I’ve been painting faces since then and after creating 33 of them, I’ve spent $600 to book an exhibition to exhibit my art. I have disabilities that have put me on a disability support pension, meaning I hardly have enough money to pay for necessities. It took me so long to save up $600. The exhibition was postponed more than a year because of covid, which is fine because it gave me more time to paint.
I put in months of intense exhibition preparation, which took everything out of me. (My disabilities mean I constantly have very little energy). I spent a month actively going out and spreading the word and giving flyers to strangers and I was so excited because it seemed like a lot of people were coming.
My big opening night event was postponed because of a lockdown and so all of the strangers I told about the opening night date was all for nothing and now no one knows when my opening night will be. It feels like no one will come.
I live in a border community and so across the border the other state got more restrictions, so most of my friends and family now can’t come. Since the gallery is right next to the border, I bet people even in my state will be scared to risk being stopped by the police.
I put years of my whole self and all my money into this exhibition and now it feels like it’s all for nothing.I know it’s not about the money I make, or the publicity, but I had so much hope that this would’ve launched my career as an artist.
So yeah, that’s my rant. I’m trying to keep positive because what’s wonderful is some of my extended family are travelling to come to my exhibition opening night. So even if they’re the only people who come, I’m so grateful and it’ll all be worth it to connect with them since I don’t know them very well. It’s not about the money or “fame” and it’s a huge achievement to have my first exhibition at 21 in the first place. But it felt so good to vent!
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I went swimming and got a sunburn on my neck and chest & then I got a bad heat rash in the same spot so my skin is an itchy mess right now. My neck is all blotchy and gross, especially in the crook. It sucks I work outside cause it's not allowing my rash to heal from sun exposure. Also my province has been covered in a layer of smoke & ash so the air quality is terrible. Even the air feels itchy somehow, ugh
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Darn it. I was going to make a submission to one of the camp threads, but thanks to my procrastination, I missed a cut-off point. And just to clarify, I'm not saying this against anyone on here. I'm not blaming anyone but myself.
