What's Bothering You?

[Croconaw]

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Hi! I was in a very similar position… I really hated where I grew up and that was an understatement. I’ve been wanting to get out to a different city, because where I grew up had memories I wanted to forget, and the scenery just sucked. I didn’t really have a valid reason other than I didn’t feel like it was my home, but that’s all the reason you need.

I’ve saved up to move out (not the unreasonable 10k that people say you need, but half that) because everyone is different… but the problem was, after going to the new city, I found jobs very quickly, like in less than a week. But I applied for zero apartments. I had an irrational fear I wouldn’t get approved, so I just didn’t try. Because I’ve had people tell me that it was unrealistic or I’d be back someday. Even though I knew I wanted to leave, it hurt and left doubts in my mind.

I’ve only recently got out of that negative mindset and plan to find that motivation I never had to actually try. Because my failing every single time I believed was due to lack of effort. Because no matter how much money you have, it’ll eventually run out if you’re not doing anything to move forward.

First of all, there’s always a way. There are ways to find jobs out of state if you’re ready for a change of scenery. If you’re interested in at least hearing about it, you can reach out to me. I’ve done it before, so it definitely works, and there are decent paying jobs too. I’m looking to permanently leave the state of PA for absolute good before the end of this year. The difference is that I want to find confidence this time that I never had before. I’ve had more jobs than I’d like to admit to though, and it’s because I kept trying to leave, because I wasn’t happy in my birth state, so I definitely wasn’t happy at my job. I’m a lot happier in different locations, I’ve found out. Good luck getting out. I know it’s hard, but you can do it.

 

[Dawnpiplup]

College life. I don't think I'm really set out for this college thing. Also... ****ing low ass self esteem. And I guess I'm just having a meh day. :/

 

[Midoriya]

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Thanks, friend, but I think it'll still be awhile before I find a job where I can actually put my university degree to good use. It doesn't help that I can't drive, and I can't drive because of my Aspergers/ASD. It's too dangerous for me, and I'd probably be dead by now had I chosen to get my license when I was 16. Still, thank you for your words.

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Thank you for your words, but I'm actually not looking to move to another state or country right now. I don't have the money to even move in the first place, nor can I drive, so I'm just looking to find something better near where I am.

Thanks guys for your words again. I really do appreciate it. I'd prefer that no one else replies to my recent posts here from here on out though. Thank you.

 

[nyx~]

Ever since school started back my feeling of loneliness has come back like a slap in the face. I talk to my online friends, who I'm truly grateful for, but just seeing everyone in their friend groups and hearing people talk about their best friends just hits me sometimes. Like I have friends but they don't invite me to do stuff out of school and half the time I feel like I'm just there and people forget my existence.

 

[Croconaw]

Insane amounts of interest for a damn loan that I got for medical reasons when my mom had the same EXACT work done and her interest is 0% literal bull and it’s not like I can just stop paying it cause my dad co-signed for me and I’m not screwing him over but yeah I have college level debt now for medical reasons and I hate Pennsylvania. Literally nothing against that state but it’s boring in the city I was born in, I see the same things every single day and I’m ready for a damn change, and I have memories here I’m trying to forget … I’m fine with the monthly payments but the fact that I would’ve literally paid DOUBLE what the actual procedure costs is **** UGH

 

[_Rainy_]

I took my bun in for surgery today at 9 and I’m anxiously waiting for and update and I won’t be able to see her until tomorrow. Her eyes were bulging out of her head when they were taking her away, she looked so scared, but she was still eating hay. I won’t forget how she looked, I feel so bad.

 

[xSuperMario64x]

so tired

 

[Midoriya]

My cat, Lulu, hasn't been doing well, throwing up and being sick and all. We don't know if it's because we're giving her the wrong amount of Insulin or what. Regardless, I feel like she doesn't have that much longer to live, so I'll make sure to make the most of the time left with her.

 

[Psydye]

Apparently someone at my sister's workplace tested positive for Covid. She already has her shots but I don't, so it may be too late for me!

 

[.: Meri :.]

I feel like the school my dad works at is really handling the Covid situation poorly. Several students and teachers are already out sick with it, including a teacher my dad's been around, and another teacher who uses the same room as him during different class periods. The school didn't even bother telling him that teacher tested positive, though, since they "weren't around each other", and he didn't find out until later. My dad teaches the class immediately after theirs and they use the same keyboards and equipment. I'm glad my family's all fully vaccinated, at least. What's also not helping my anxiety around all this is that my ragweed allergy is really kicking in right now.

 

[Stella-Io]

So busy lately, the busy season has started at work and will continue till January. Plus tryin to set up a hair appointment and get my damn money from VISA since my card was scammed. Last weekend I was busy on my days off and Tuesday I was so busy, I didn't get home till 9:30pm. Then I had to eat dinner, after that it was past 10, my 'bedtime' but I had done like nothing for myself that day so I stayed an hour and half later just to do somethin. When I got off of work that day I had only enough time to take a shower, eat a snack then leave for my 3hr class.

Also my pay raise hasn't come up yet, despite the fact that it should have by now. I literally could not get a moment today to talk about it to the payroll person either, so hopefully tomorrow I can. This is something I want the answer to now. I fear the worse, like they decided against it and revoked it without telling me, but we'll see.

 

[-Lumi-]

Oh I don’t feel well. My anxiety is playing up and it’s making my chest feel so lousy and making me feel dizzy this is super lame

 

[jiny]

i want a spring sakura ;_____;

 

[xSuperMario64x]

i want a spring sakura ;_____;

check your inventory ☺

 

[Xara]

one of those nights where i’m sitting in the dark and thinking too much about past, present and future ****. i really need to turn a light on and do something else. there’s a lot in my life that i need to fix, but hurting myself like this isn’t the way to go about it.

 

[DarkDesertFox]

I've never had a history of angry management problems, but today I am just feeling so, so angry. I think it's just everything stockpiling today. Eye pain, ankle pain, tiredness, bad day at work and other things I won't mention. Hoping this feeling goes away tomorrow and that going to bed earlier will help.

 

[Autumn247]

I can't sleep tonight, and I only slept 5 hours last night. Plus I've been coughing all day due to GERD (acid reflux), so I feel like crap, and I need to go to the dentist but I don't know how long I can sit in a chair without coughing. It's just a cleaning/exam. I really need it, idk, maybe I should wait until I get back on meds for acid reflux when I see my primary care doctor next week. I might need to get on antibiotics for a particular tooth though. So maybe I shouldn't put it off. I'm gonna be a mess tomorrow if I don't get good sleep again tonight, I will just have to deal with it I guess.

 

[jiny]

guard stuff is so expensive i have to pay $91 for 3 things i need for guard. i also still have to pay $100 for equipment, and then $200 something for the uniform agh

 

[_Rainy_]

My Bun made it through surgery just fine so far, but the problem is having to take time off to go pick her up a few hours away. Not sure what I’m going to need to do because I have some commitments and I feel awful for having to break them, but I can’t leave her over the weekend.

 

[jiny]

i thought my parents were finally letting me join colorguard but ha i was wrong idk why they can’t be supportive just this one time …………