What's Bothering You?
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I am so late to seeing this, but I needed to agree with our friends here and say your art does not look like it was done in five minutes!
It is clear you put so much effort into your stories and art. Your art is great and you will only continue to improve the more you practice. As for wanting to be an author, you are such a talented story-teller! The stories behind your art are always so creative, and I honestly have no idea how you do it!
You are so creative, and that’s such a strong skill to have in your art and stories.Don’t be discouraged Koopa, keep up your amazing work.
i may have to put my cat to sleep. her health is so poor, and i don’t see that changing. she can barely walk, she can’t jump, there’s something wrong with her vertebrae, she has a heart murmur, bladder stones, she’s severely overweight and her breathing issues have returned. she is having nasty coughing fits frequently. she’s supposed to have surgery on her knees within the next 2-3 weeks, but i don’t see her surviving it. and even if it did, what would it matter? all of her other issues will still be there. the surgery may not even help her.
she’s in my room right now, and i panic every time she so much as moves her head, terrified that she’s going to start coughing. terrified that she won’t be able to breathe. she wants to be with me, and i will never deny her that, but i am so ****ing scared. and my parents keep leaving me home alone with her, knowing that if something were to happen while they’re out, i would not be able to help her.
i want to run from this so badly; hide myself in another room so that i don’t hear her coughing and gagging; pretend that it doesn’t exist. but i won’t, because i refuse to act like the coward i am — she deserves more than to be abandoned.
i don’t want to let her go. i don’t know if i can. the thought of her no longer existing leaves me hyperventilating and in tears, but i don’t want her to hurt. i just... i’m not ready for this. i just want more time.
she’s in my room right now, and i panic every time she so much as moves her head, terrified that she’s going to start coughing. terrified that she won’t be able to breathe. she wants to be with me, and i will never deny her that, but i am so ****ing scared. and my parents keep leaving me home alone with her, knowing that if something were to happen while they’re out, i would not be able to help her.
i want to run from this so badly; hide myself in another room so that i don’t hear her coughing and gagging; pretend that it doesn’t exist. but i won’t, because i refuse to act like the coward i am — she deserves more than to be abandoned.
i don’t want to let her go. i don’t know if i can. the thought of her no longer existing leaves me hyperventilating and in tears, but i don’t want her to hurt. i just... i’m not ready for this. i just want more time.
daringred_
✧ stupid lesbian ✧
hey, just want to say i understand what you're going through, and i'm here if you need to talk. i just lost two of my cats within slightly over a month of each other earlier this year, and it was horrible. one of them abruptly disappeared (we presume he was hit by a car), but the other had to be scheduled for euthanasia due to endstage kidney failure and (potentially) cancer. it broke my heart, because she was my best-friend (and always will be). we'd had her since i was 7, and she lived to the ripe age of 14, so we literally grew up together. like you, i struggled to let her go -- i desperately hoped maybe the kidney diet and some constipation meds would buy her time, but she barely lasted a week. still, it was better than nothing, and it gave me some time to say goodbye to her. i'm not going to sit here and tell you the loss gets easier because i'm literally crying writing this, but for me, the "build-up" is always the worst part because you know what's coming, and you feel powerless to stop it, but sometimes we have to suffer so that they don't. just know that it's the kindest thing you can do for her if you think she's in pain. don't wait until all or most of her days are bad ones. some owners wait until they have no choice, and while i can't begrudge them for it, it's better to let your pet go while they still have some good days left in them, otherwise their last memories will only be pain and misery.
my only regret is not being able to be with nana at the very end. we weren't allowed in with her due to pandemic restrictions, and we didn't want to have her euthanized outside with us where everyone else could see. the memory of her being taken away in her carrier, meowing, to die surrounded by strangers still haunts me sometimes, even though i know they would've taken very good care of her. i really recommend, if your vet allows you to, that you be there with her at the end -- or that at least someone in your family does. i know it's hard and horrible and emotional, but your cat deserves to spend her last moments with someone she knows and loves if they let you. (and if they don't, try not to feel too badly about it. you wanted to be there, and you did everything else you could for her. that's what counts.) if you want to talk further, my DMs are always open <3
my only regret is not being able to be with nana at the very end. we weren't allowed in with her due to pandemic restrictions, and we didn't want to have her euthanized outside with us where everyone else could see. the memory of her being taken away in her carrier, meowing, to die surrounded by strangers still haunts me sometimes, even though i know they would've taken very good care of her. i really recommend, if your vet allows you to, that you be there with her at the end -- or that at least someone in your family does. i know it's hard and horrible and emotional, but your cat deserves to spend her last moments with someone she knows and loves if they let you. (and if they don't, try not to feel too badly about it. you wanted to be there, and you did everything else you could for her. that's what counts.) if you want to talk further, my DMs are always open <3
Still haven't found a different job yet. Driving 50ish mins twice a day 5 days a week is really getting old. Especially since one day last week I got stuck in traffic on the way home so 50mins quickly became 1 1/2 hours in the car (not counting my morning drive). Ugh.
hey there, im really really sorry to hear these happening to your loved one. ive experienced the same thing with my hamsters, i was such a mess when they started acting really sickly and i couldn't sleep at night knowing they were hurting and there was nothing i could do but to be there in their final moments. it's been 10 months since and sometimes i still think about them; even now that i'm taking about them, my heart wrenches up a little bit and i feel like crying.
im not the best in giving advice, but i just say let it out if you need to cry. it's a really painful situation to be in, but i found myself feeling a little better after a long and good cry, even if the feeling is temporary. talk to your cat as well, give them all the love while you still can, make them as comfortable as possible. you can also talk to friends and family if it helps ease the pain; i confided a lot in my mom and boyfriend during my hamsters' last moments. i hope you can give all the support you can to your cat, and you can also receive all the support you deserve yourself.
all the love in the world to you and your cat. im sure your cat lived a long and fulfilling life with a caring owner like you, so please dont be hard on yourself.
im not the best in giving advice, but i just say let it out if you need to cry. it's a really painful situation to be in, but i found myself feeling a little better after a long and good cry, even if the feeling is temporary. talk to your cat as well, give them all the love while you still can, make them as comfortable as possible. you can also talk to friends and family if it helps ease the pain; i confided a lot in my mom and boyfriend during my hamsters' last moments. i hope you can give all the support you can to your cat, and you can also receive all the support you deserve yourself.
all the love in the world to you and your cat. im sure your cat lived a long and fulfilling life with a caring owner like you, so please dont be hard on yourself.
Dunquixote
Mrrrroooooow! T-Treasure...
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you should take a look at my humans. they’re horrible. they’re not anywhere close to being perfect either.
Just a suggestion, you might want to edit your shop post that mentions how long you did each drawing if you’re feeling insecure about that.
If people are looking at your posts and liking them and buying your art, you should be proud of yourself. I know I am not one to talk since I sometimes come in here and post my anxiety about my art. There will be many times where you will feel discouraged; but if you really enjoy it (that is most important and not if others like it), then keep doing it. Don’t think of quitting every time you get discouraged unless you aren’t having fun; there will be many ups and downs when you are learning to draw and sharing it with people.
If you aren’t happy with your art, look up tutorials and exercises to help you draw better and learn how to draw — but only if you want to keep doing this.
Sorry if this comes out harsh. i don’t mean to be mean. i feel this so much since my art isn’t good either. I am not good at expressing myself or giving advice without sounding mean :/
I am sorry you still feel like an outcast. So many people have told you many times like during the camp event and now that we like having you around; we enjoy your positivity.
The only disgrace to artists are people who steal others artwork and then try to sell them. Please try to calm down; every artist starts somewhere.
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a lot of people have said their praises and i agree, i think every artwork is wonderful as long as love and effort is put into it :]
i personally feel that you can direct your frustrations into improving youself the way you want to. i always get bad art blocks and whenever i pick up drawing again, i feel my artwork looks terrible and it’s not up to my standard. what i do is i look at tutorials online on art styles i find fun and inspiring and just copy what they’re doing — from there i can tweak the method to fit more my taste while still keeping the essential tips and tricks i just learned. it’s not shameful at all to consult guides online if you’re looking to improve yourself! at the end of the day the only person you should be comparing to is yourself. i cant draw realistic humans for the life of me and that’s okay; i much prefer cartoon-like drawings over realism, so i dont think they’re comparable at all. there is no one perfect way to draw a human; it’s all up to what you feel makes you happiest. :] don’t be too hard in yourself, take an art break if you need!
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VanitasFan26
I'm just a ghost.
Tomorrow is my birthday and I am just feeling very fed up with everything. I didn't even do anything last year, Covid-19 happened, All I did was just sit at home playing games and watching TV, trying to find a job is such a pain these days, and I really haven't figured out what the heck I even want to do in life. I know people tend to ask me these questions of "What do you want to do in your life" or "What will you do when you're at this age" and I keep giving the same response "I don't know and I would not know until I find out". I don't want to sound like an ungrateful person, but the only people who celebrate my birthday is my parents (even though they have mistreated me) and a few friends who haven't left me yet. Other than that I am just feeling fed up.
daringred_
✧ stupid lesbian ✧
bit of a rant.
this guy i was friends with in highschool messaged me a couple of weeks ago, and we exchanged numbers to talk since i don't really have social media. only one other person i went to school with has ever bothered to keep in contact with me, so it was nice to have someone to talk to and reminisce with. but, of course, it could never be that simple. it became pretty obvious, pretty quickly, that he just wanted to sleep with me or date me with the intention of doing that. i should've clued on when he said he contacted me because of a dream he had that reminded him of the crush he had on me when we were younger, but since i also had a (lowkey, comp. het.) crush on him back then too, i just sort of dismissed it as laughing at what was. nope! turns out it was his first wink, wink, nudge, nudge, and they got vastly less subtle the more we talked. he ended up saying a fair bit of NSFW stuff to me under the guise of joking around about teenage hormones (fortunately, i'm way too desensitized and found it funny more than anything) and then, when it became apparent i wasn't interested or was too dumb to take his hints, he stopped messaging me altogether. haven't heard from him in a month. men are the worst lmao.
Reginald Fairfield
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One of the management quit, another is on the meth.
Orius
The People's Champion
Can't believe I'm car sick. I've never been car sick before! Doesn't make sense. On my way in a cab to collect those unofficial Amiibos right now, and I'm not feeling so good...
Probably from my lack of sleep. Didn't sleep very well for the past few days.
Probably from my lack of sleep. Didn't sleep very well for the past few days.
xSuperMario64x
call me Bug 🇨🇦💜🐛
first of all, is someone here making you feel bad about your art? is someone telling you that you need to leave because your art is "terrible"? if so then they need to be reported. if you're telling yourself that then you just tell that little voice in your head to **** off, you don't deserve that.
second, it can take years and years of practice to perfect an art form/style. the drawings I made when I started as a kid look pretty awful, but that didn't stop me. heck I'm still perfecting my drawing skills. there will always be flaws and screw-ups but that's why you keep practicing. can't give up just because someone else is "better" at art (there are still artists here where I look at what they can do and think "wow my art sucks compared to theirs" but each art style is unique and you just have to be happy with what you have/what you can do for now). your drawings will always be a step in the right direction towards perfecting your form and style.
one of my favorite quotes of all time is "the expert in anything was once a beginner." just keep that in mind if you ever feel like giving up.
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anyways, what I came here for... my tiredness/fatigue today is ridiculous. I only cleaned for a few hours yesterday but today I can barely stay awake, I've already slept for like 12 hours and I'm still super tired and exhausted. I have no energy to do anything, not even stuff I want to do :/
