At what point do I know I've bitten off more than I can chew? At what point do the people around me at work realize that and tell me?
I'm just so ****in stupid, I'm too stupid to do more than the minimum that a job requires of me. I keep wanting to learn more and be able to do everythin but I'm too much of an idiot to be able to do it right. I hear it in the way people talk to my face and one time what my boss might have said about me behind my back when I left the room. I keep messing up, I'm not smart and I have **** memory. I keep making simple mistakes that cost time and stress. Because of my bad memory I ask things and people get annoyed and bothered with me cause they've told me that before, or that I should have had common sense to know the answer. I just get overwhelmed and stressed out. I keep tryin and mess it up. At what point do I just stop kidding myself and stop tryin? At what point do I accept that I'm just a stupid **** who needs to stop tryin to do everythin? That I'm not going to progress to anythin better and that I'm nothing more than a low level worker who can sometimes not even do the bare basics.
I'm not going to amount to anythin, I have no skills or talents and tryin to be better doesn't work.
I'm just so ****in stupid, I'm too stupid to do more than the minimum that a job requires of me. I keep wanting to learn more and be able to do everythin but I'm too much of an idiot to be able to do it right. I hear it in the way people talk to my face and one time what my boss might have said about me behind my back when I left the room. I keep messing up, I'm not smart and I have **** memory. I keep making simple mistakes that cost time and stress. Because of my bad memory I ask things and people get annoyed and bothered with me cause they've told me that before, or that I should have had common sense to know the answer. I just get overwhelmed and stressed out. I keep tryin and mess it up. At what point do I just stop kidding myself and stop tryin? At what point do I accept that I'm just a stupid **** who needs to stop tryin to do everythin? That I'm not going to progress to anythin better and that I'm nothing more than a low level worker who can sometimes not even do the bare basics.
I'm not going to amount to anythin, I have no skills or talents and tryin to be better doesn't work.