What's Bothering You?

[-Mars-]

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[kayleee]

I’m feeling really stressed out at work. I have a lot of things coming up that I don’t feel prepared for, and I went from enjoying my job to really disliking it after accepting a promotion. I know accepting it was the right/smart thing to do but it created so much more work for me and made my job far more stressful than it was before. I guess I don’t know if it was actually worth it

 

[Neb]

Ruminating on that toxic relationship again. I shouldn’t have reminded myself of some of the things they said about me behind my back. It’s not healthy.

 

[ali.di.magix]

I booked flights back home for later this month and I already regret it. I don't even know why I booked them in the first place anymore. I look forward to going home, but I always get this sinking feeling of anxiety about going back to that (sometimes) toxic environment. This time it makes me think of how my dad right out accused me of "using" them when I was injured and immobile. If something goes wrong and he gets upset, there's no doubt that'll come up again. And if it does, it'll be the last time I stay at my parents house. If I want to go back home, I'll stay in a motel or something.

 

[ZeldaCrossing64]

This morning my step-mom grounded me 'cause my room wasn't clean and she had to wake me up three times when I was gonna wake up on the third time. Great. I was grounded yesterday for a dumb and invalid reason, and it's happening again.
Yesterday I almost got in trouble for "aggressing" my brother (when I just called him out for creating more work for me and I slightly raised my voice). I'm surprised I wasn't grounded right there.

 

[Shellzilla_515]

You gotta be joking me. Another channel fell victim to Nintendo for having their soundtracks on Youtube and had to remove them as a result. They seem to be the only one who hates people listening to their awesome soundtracks and it makes me a little mad. I mean, I have some Super Mario Galaxy soundtracks saved, but still... Provide other means to listen to your music, Nintendo!

 

[S.J.]

Spoiler: Vent

I've been having trouble with friends. Don't get me wrong, I do have my friend group, but lately they've been hanging out with other people and we haven't been talking much. Now Don't get me wrong, even though I don't really seem like one, I am an extrovert. I enjoy being surrounded by a big group of people , even if they aren't all friends with me. I'm also very social and I love to talk. This should be easy for me right? Just to find some new people. Though it's the end of the year and everyone else has plans so it's kinda hard to do that. I just- idk.

(I know most of my forum friends are kinda inactiveish right now, but I would really appreciate a virtual hug, even if you don't normally interact with me)

Oh no, I'm so late to this, but sending you a big virtual hug!

 

[Alienfish]

Wish it could stop raining, I hate going outside in rain but yeah I have to cause work. Ugh.

 

[daringred_]

a lot.

i have a blood test on tuesday. i stopped taking my vitamins yesterday, so they wouldn't affect the results, but i read that some can stay in your body for weeks/months/etc. so i think i'm going to get skewed results no matter what. i'm not sure if i should write down what i take and the amounts so it can be factored in, or if that looks stupid. (and if it's even able to be deducted from the result.) my girlfriend also can't visit and be there for support anymore because her work needs her for some operation.

then just general garbage-ness. wishing i was normal so i could get a job and have money to buy things i want. instead i've got three mental illnesses, one of which is completely debilitating and not responding to any treatment so far, and have to be referred for an autism assessment when i next see my doctor. starting to wonder what's going to be wrong with me next.

 

[Firesquids]

Making friends as an adult is so hard, why does no one want to just chill, play video games, watch movies/cartoons and smoke weed with me? I feel like I've set the bar pretty low here. Sometimes I wish I could meet myself at least then we'd be of the same mind.

 

[Mr_Keroppi]

My parents called me dumb & girly again... They say I need to find other interests and stop being a baby.... They also said everything I like is sick and I interpreted this as them calling me an idiot basically you sure can love my brother because he likes normal boy stuff but you have got to hate me because I am not as mature and I like girly things... way to parent great job.... I guess the millions of things I do are not enough. I literally do everything a parent could want from their child...... your excuse about not letting me do things and taking my stuff away because "its helping you out socially and emotionally" is literally the opposite Good thing I am always positive because I would be a lot more hurt if I didnt love myself. I cry way to often and they dont even notice most of the time Atleast they love me on the inside! They are wonderful parents but sometimes dont understand me very well

 

[Firesquids]

Spoiler: Vent

I've been having trouble with friends. Don't get me wrong, I do have my friend group, but lately they've been hanging out with other people and we haven't been talking much. Now Don't get me wrong, even though I don't really seem like one, I am an extrovert. I enjoy being surrounded by a big group of people , even if they aren't all friends with me. I'm also very social and I love to talk. This should be easy for me right? Just to find some new people. Though it's the end of the year and everyone else has plans so it's kinda hard to do that. I just- idk.

(I know most of my forum friends are kinda inactiveish right now, but I would really appreciate a virtual hug, even if you don't normally interact with me)

I feel the same way Koopa, it's hard to make close and meaningful relationships. My old "friends" have all let me down when it really counts. I've been engaged for almost three years now and I have no one to invite to my wedding part of me wants to put it off until I have at least a couple worthy people.

Sending you a virtual hug.

 

[Shawna]

Making friends as an adult is so hard, why does no one want to just chill, play video games, watch movies/cartoons and smoke weed with me? I feel like I've set the bar pretty low here. Sometimes I wish I could meet myself at least then we'd be of the same mind.

I don’t smoke weed, but I gladly do the other things!

 

[Alienfish]

Making friends as an adult is so hard, why does no one want to just chill, play video games, watch movies/cartoons and smoke weed with me? I feel like I've set the bar pretty low here. Sometimes I wish I could meet myself at least then we'd be of the same mind.

I'd join you if we lived in the same country bro.

But yeah I agree, I've pretty special/niche interests and most people are totally uninterested or they are double my age and probs don't care for younger friends lol.

 

[xSuperMario64x]

my mom loves to stir up drama w people and she's arguing over the phone w someone she plays an online game with and I'm already so tired of hearing it. I hate when people argue and yell, it lowkey triggers PTSD in me and makes me feel really anxious and scared. I wish she would stop. /.\

 

[DarkDesertFox]

This has to be one of the worst weeks of my life. Not only because of a breakup with someone I loved more than anything, but because my cat is sick and parents are fighting too. I'm just really depressed at this point. I didn't want things to turn out like this. This week was supposed to be amazing...

 

[Shawna]

I tried texting my mom for Mother’s Day, but the message didn’t go through. ._.

According to my dad, she was having issues with her phone. I just hope my mom understands, and realize it’s these issues fault.

She can be very high maintenance and ***** about me not giving her enough attention. -_- ;-;

Late to update this, But now she tried reaching our to my brother to tell me to call her (this was Friday).

Mom, how many times do I have to discuss this with you?! Talking on the phone is extremely awkward, boring, and uncomfortable for me.

Don’t get me wrong, it’s a different story if it’s brief and for something important, but just to chitchat and bull**** (which is exactly what my mom wants to do)! UGH I HATE IT!

 

[Neb]

I swear I can never get a break. I was quietly reading a book in my apartment building’s lobby when a guy walked up and said “We’re holding a meeting that was planned on FaceBook until 10. People who didn’t sign up can’t be here.” I said okay. “So that’s a no,” he said. Then he walked out of the building. The other person who was there for the meeting was complaining on the phone that I was taking up “their” space even though there wasn’t a single sign saying as much. As I was getting up to leave the person had a smug smile on their face. This is a hangout lobby for everyone that lives in the building. It’s not a place for snobby people to kick others out of.

This isn’t even the first time this has happened. Last time I tried to read down there several people were calling the front desk because I was supposedly breaking the rules. I wasn’t. I was wearing a mask and socially distancing just like the signs said.

 

[Disneyfangirl23]

I can’t find my Pokemon shield game cartridge. My mum is going to help me look but if we can’t find it I’m going to buy a new one

 

[skarmoury]

Spoiler: voices

I will always hate the innate feeling of comparing myself to others. Today I had an exam and I was so happy I got a 96, but I heard others got a 98 and even a 100 and I feel extremely bad now because I feel stupid. This wouldn't have happened had one of my friends just not talked about scores after the exam. I hate asking others about their scores because I don't want to feel bad, and I would've rejected the conversation completely, but my friend's literal opening statement was "Was I the only one who didn't get a 100? I only got a 98." I didn't want to know and I didn't ask and now that I know these, I just feel extremely terrible. It also doesn't help that I feel I studied way longer than these people yet still couldn't be on-par with them. I don't want the intrusive thoughts; I just don't. I find peace in the mindset that I just passed, but there will ALWAYS be that voice in my head telling me I'm not enough and I never will be.

It doesn't always have to be about scores and tests, too. Today I learned two of my close friends are achieving milestones today for their thesis: one is finishing their master's thesis, which I can assume is for publication, and another had her thesis recommended to the college for her to join the competition for best college thesis of that year. I am happy for them, I really am, but there's a part of me that's telling me I'm not doing as much as they are, like I'm not doing anything at all and I feel like absolute trash. I feel like I don't have any achievements in life, I don't have anything going on for me and I'm just idle. The fact is that I'm okay with being idle, I'm okay living a simple life and being a simple person who likes doing her creative hobbies, but there's always this pressure being around peers who seem to be achieving so much more that I can and probably ever will.

I don't know. I just want to find peace in the thought that living simply and comfortably is okay, too. I want to know if it's okay to feel like I don't need to overachieve. I to know if it's okay do things to the best of my abilities regardless of my peers' progress. I just need to hear from someone that this is okay, that it's alright to not want to be anything extremely more than who I am today.

Honestly, I just want to be a doctor. Maybe an interior designer too. And I just want to hone my creative skills (not necessarily for monetary purposes; I just love hobbies). Really that simple, I guess.