I went to the doctor’s today with my mom to get medicine for my cough and to see if there is anything else I can take for my depression. It wasn’t going to be a happy visit since we were going to talk about something I did that isn’t good. When they asked me stuff I froze and got overwhelmed and shut off. I did explain as best as I could. But I realize now i forgot about the main reason for my feelings; I just don’t feel comfortable telling them it didn’t help she was not my regular doctor; that threw me off a lot right away. i left frustrated and right now I still am. it was a successful visit though for medicine - got prescribed something for my cold and to help with anxiety/mood/depression.
when i talked to my mom this week about stuff, she said she’d look into safe dating sites for me, but I’m pretty sure she forgot. I don’t know why she’d want to look into i for me; i do know there is a lot of dangers and I have no idea how to go about carefully or what to do exactly. my heart is not ready even though i think this is the only way I can get myself to move on. I don’t really want to, but I need to do something to keep me from falling further apart.
I’m so sad
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