What's Bothering You?
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ZeldaCrossing64
Sugary Cynic
It's been a year since my mom's death. I don't think the exact date affects anything since I miss her just the same, but still. I want to be excited for the upcoming Halloween event, but it happens to fall on that day.
Of course, no time for grievances right now. I have another ****ing appointment, so I need to act like I'm fine for a bit longer. But I'm not okay. I want my mom back.
I wonder how my brother is holding up. He never wants to talk about it, so it makes me wonder if he truly misses her or if he's masking his emotions. At least he's having fun at a friend's house, but I'm stuck here in my grief and responsibilities.
I also lost the necklace my mom gave me and I've been inconsistent with taking me meds. Lord help me.
Of course, no time for grievances right now. I have another ****ing appointment, so I need to act like I'm fine for a bit longer. But I'm not okay. I want my mom back.
I wonder how my brother is holding up. He never wants to talk about it, so it makes me wonder if he truly misses her or if he's masking his emotions. At least he's having fun at a friend's house, but I'm stuck here in my grief and responsibilities.
I also lost the necklace my mom gave me and I've been inconsistent with taking me meds. Lord help me.
CylieDanny
OK, it's giving Jealousy
This year is the literal worst, and it just keeps coming. I almost feel like the world is against me now.
I spend almost a month in medical care, then a long recovery and thought I was doing better. Everything was fine, I was moving on and things were nice. I'm able to walk again
But no. Now im sick! I caught a cold yesterday, that's making me so numb, weak, and gross. Yesterday I wven said *I don't care* I wanted my freaking Overwatch Skins and to just enjoy the weather. I didnt feel as bad yesterday, so I decide to wear a mask and go to the convince store to grab a card, and I trip on my way back and hurt my leg
Like come on give me a break. I just wanna live my life. I wanna do stuff. Not this. Anything but being stuck doing nothing.
I'm so. So done with this. I'll just rest again, and hope I can get better. I was suaposed to start next week, just give me that.
Just let me be cured and I can go sell movie tickets again. If not I don't know. I juf don't know.
I spend almost a month in medical care, then a long recovery and thought I was doing better. Everything was fine, I was moving on and things were nice. I'm able to walk again
But no. Now im sick! I caught a cold yesterday, that's making me so numb, weak, and gross. Yesterday I wven said *I don't care* I wanted my freaking Overwatch Skins and to just enjoy the weather. I didnt feel as bad yesterday, so I decide to wear a mask and go to the convince store to grab a card, and I trip on my way back and hurt my leg
Like come on give me a break. I just wanna live my life. I wanna do stuff. Not this. Anything but being stuck doing nothing.
I'm so. So done with this. I'll just rest again, and hope I can get better. I was suaposed to start next week, just give me that.
Just let me be cured and I can go sell movie tickets again. If not I don't know. I juf don't know.
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My entire body aches. My shoulders, upper arms, and legs are the worst affected.
I've 3hrs worth of aquaria cleaning to take care of tomorrow and then we're hosting my best mate and her husband later in the day, so I hope I wake-up feeling more human.
I've 3hrs worth of aquaria cleaning to take care of tomorrow and then we're hosting my best mate and her husband later in the day, so I hope I wake-up feeling more human.
my sleep, i have too much, who wants it?i know its a first world problem but i fell asleep at 2am and woke up at. SIX PM. its not terrible because ive taken the week off and have been doing a ton every day before but it feels like such a waste and reminder of the condition of my health lol
WingsofLove
Senior Member
My life is good right now but I just can’t wait to move into my new place. I wish it were quicker. That is a small thing though
ShadowLelouch97
Senior Member
I feel very overwhelmed at times. I'm a people pleaser, and if I'm constantly unable to meet something at my job I feel like I am a failure.
I also have a lot of thoughts in my head, and no way to communicate them. I'm so lost in my head and thoughts I need explained.
I also have a lot of thoughts in my head, and no way to communicate them. I'm so lost in my head and thoughts I need explained.
daisyflowers
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massive wasp that just woke me up and i feel that i can still hear it. or there is just another much smaller one somewhere else in the vicinity
Reginald Fairfield
Senior Member
Coworker came in while sick, now I'm getting something.
xSuperMario64x
call me Bug 🇨🇦💜🐛
sometimes I feel like I'm just meant to be sad, like I'm destined to live a life of feeling upset and frustrated. that's where my comfort lies, that's what I'm used to. I can't see my mood improving as the years go on. I don't know how to truly feel happiness anymore, I don't know how to create my own happiness.
also came to work and I sat in my hot car for about seven minutes because I'm feeling sleepy, and I felt cozy. now that I'm in the library, I'm freezing. didn't think I'd need my winter coat because it's 70F outside, but apparently I should've brought it.
also came to work and I sat in my hot car for about seven minutes because I'm feeling sleepy, and I felt cozy. now that I'm in the library, I'm freezing. didn't think I'd need my winter coat because it's 70F outside, but apparently I should've brought it.
imagine your daughter telling you that she's struggling and she feels alone, and your reaction is to give her the silent treatment and prove to her that she is in fact alone and that you don't care that she's struggling. imagine telling her that her problems don't compare to yours.
I'm so angry.
I'm so angry.
WingsofLove
Senior Member
I still have more paperwork for the agency and it is getting overwhelming. My mom took a half an hour of my time to write an email to my doctor. She was trying to make it perfect. Ugh. English majors are perfectionists.
I've been told this before, but it's kind of set in today that I'm my own worst enemy. My own brain is the one that creates the voices that berate me almost every day. The majority of my negative past memories were either hallucinations or paranoid delusions that I created from overanalyzing things. My brain is the one that replays every negative memory every day. My inner critic is meaner to me than anyone else. I feel like I'm in a never ending battle with myself. It's not my fault I ended up like this. This illness is genetic and not something I wished on myself. I need to learn to be kinder to myself and not let the voices bother me. I need to quit attacking myself for my appearance and past social mistakes. I can't cure this illness, but I can learn to not bother myself so much.
I already want to time travel to next summer so I don't have to deal with the cold weather OR my parents having fires outside just because it's cold.
If it blows a certain direction, it gets in my room and apparently I am sensitive to it so that drives me insane and miserable.
The worst part is this year our cats stopped behaving and the rest of the house is a health hazard now so I have nowhere safe to go if the fire or cold weather gets unbearable.... (My room can end up being one of the coldest places in the house)
I feel like the smoke might be starting to bother me already but it's hard to tell because I have been suffering with tonsil problems for a year.
I can't leave the house because I can't drive. I can't move out because I have no money and am incapable of taking care of myself. I am trapped here. I don't want to even be here!
If it blows a certain direction, it gets in my room and apparently I am sensitive to it so that drives me insane and miserable.
The worst part is this year our cats stopped behaving and the rest of the house is a health hazard now so I have nowhere safe to go if the fire or cold weather gets unbearable.... (My room can end up being one of the coldest places in the house)
I feel like the smoke might be starting to bother me already but it's hard to tell because I have been suffering with tonsil problems for a year.
I can't leave the house because I can't drive. I can't move out because I have no money and am incapable of taking care of myself. I am trapped here. I don't want to even be here!
ali.di.magix
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This is petty, but I feel like whatever I do or say is wrong at work or at home. I don't know why I even bother putting my thoughts out there if I'm going to get shut down, or why I even bother doing anything if it's wrong.
I feel like my thoughts or feelings don't matter to the people I'm surrounded by. It doesn't help that I don't know what my needs are, and I don't know how to communicate them.
I feel like my thoughts or feelings don't matter to the people I'm surrounded by. It doesn't help that I don't know what my needs are, and I don't know how to communicate them.
