What's Bothering You?

I feel like I’m not being the best friend I can to some people, and that’s leaving me feeling down. Like sure, I can get depressed... but at the cost of my friends? I don’t think anyone would think that’s worth it. ...That’s also just not the type of person I am. I love all my friends too much to turn them away from me now... but I need to do a better job of being a friend to them. Sometimes I feel like I’m too selfish and not selfless enough.
 
At one point I wanted to have a youtube channel where I would read badly written fiction to classical music, and add sound effects.
 
Period can I just remove everything related to that smfh.

Also still bit bummed I didn't have time nor opportunity to do all my my homework but hey I'm not the crappy teacher
 
Last night I stayed up until 6am to try to get the highest rank on salmon run in splatoon2 but it was stagnant for like 4 hours of painful grinding. When I attempted it again after I slept I finished it in an hour. I feel like I should have just slept longer instead of playing with bad momentum. I’m getting too old to be pulling all-nighters for gaming :’D Good thing I didn’t have work this morning lol. But now I feel groggy and unproductive.
 
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I have a caffeine withdrawal headache but I don?t really want to go out to get my coffee. Also need to go to the grocery store and buy my rabbits week of veggies but trying to shop for them while giving them variety and not upsetting their tummies is so hard. Then I need to do some work. Working at home is so distracting if you have Pok?mon...
 
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I feel like I’m not being the best friend I can to some people, and that’s leaving me feeling down. Like sure, I can get depressed... but at the cost of my friends? I don’t think anyone would think that’s worth it. ...That’s also just not the type of person I am. I love all my friends too much to turn them away from me now... but I need to do a better job of being a friend to them. Sometimes I feel like I’m too selfish and not selfless enough.
You're thinking about it too much
 
this pinwheel.. in a way i dislike that bc only have a green and probs wont get a red, on the other end i like it(green one) bc it was the only random night since then (unsure abt 2013) but it's a neat memento i guess.
 
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Just felt anxious all day and honestly didn't even feel like leaving my house today, just wanted to curl up in a ball and I don't know why.

I've also lost a lot of weight these past few months from stress and I fear my mother's reaction when I come home next month. Better start shovelling food down and pile on those pounds.

To be honest, I really struggle with eating set meals and almost always skip dinner because I'm too tired after a long day and completely lose the desire to cook for myself. I also lose my appetite under stress and I'll go through a whole day with just a slice of toast and a banana, then by the time evening comes around, it suddenly strikes me that I haven't eaten. I need to get my act together, argh!
 
Just felt anxious all day and honestly didn't even feel like leaving my house today, just wanted to curl up in a ball and I don't know why.

I've also lost a lot of weight these past few months from stress and I fear my mother's reaction when I come home next month. Better start shovelling food down and pile on those pounds.

To be honest, I really struggle with eating set meals and almost always skip dinner because I'm too tired after a long day and completely lose the desire to cook for myself. I also lose my appetite under stress and I'll go through a whole day with just a slice of toast and a banana, then by the time evening comes around, it suddenly strikes me that I haven't eaten. I need to get my act together, argh!

So sorry to hear your going through all this! I hope things start working out soon. I struggle with very high anxiety so I know what it’s like to basically drown in stress. Best of luck!
 
I come home for break and instead of relaxing I'm anxiously laying in my room as I listen to my parents yell at each other constantly in the living room.
You know it's bad when you're too embarrassed to ask for something to eat. Would've been better if my parents hasn't waited til I got home for break to do all these stupid renovations and rearrangements of the living room. I don't want to do anything so I'm embarrassed to ask then to make something to eat because "I disobeyed them" and therefore my mind believes that I don't deserve to eat.


I hate living in this toxicity.
 
What’s bothering me right now... pissant hourly employees incapable of helping me... they were too busy playing with their poinsettias and let me walk off to complain to the management and by then my hot flash was in full on rage mode so I told her to forget about all the things I’d already decided on behind the counter... it was a nursery by the way. But Dillard’s was super helpful when I went there a few days ago so I guess you’ve just gotta take the good with the bad and get over it. My seventy something year old mother’s birthday is this Saturday and she almost died from cancer, surgery and chemo treatments so holidays are kind of a big deal in my family right now.
 
My side of my head hurts, the skin is flaky. I should visit a dermatologist. Another is I spilled hot coffee on my leg. :/
 
Just full cleaned my room including floor wash, vacuum, sweeping, and my rabbit's hay is already everywhere again. ;_; can't win against hay
 
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^ about what of it...?


Listen baby. When I'm mad, I don't yell. I don't explain. When I am, I just keep my mouth shut tight. I am pretty laid-back type of person so I don't get upset easily. And when I do, I have every right to be.
You may not know but I've in all honesty been crazy busy. I technically don't have time for myself to be engaged in any negative thoughts or talks. Understand?
 
Just felt anxious all day and honestly didn't even feel like leaving my house today, just wanted to curl up in a ball and I don't know why.

I've also lost a lot of weight these past few months from stress and I fear my mother's reaction when I come home next month. Better start shovelling food down and pile on those pounds.

To be honest, I really struggle with eating set meals and almost always skip dinner because I'm too tired after a long day and completely lose the desire to cook for myself. I also lose my appetite under stress and I'll go through a whole day with just a slice of toast and a banana, then by the time evening comes around, it suddenly strikes me that I haven't eaten. I need to get my act together, argh!
I'm the complete opposite; I'm a huge stress eater. That's why I never snack while studying, or doing assignments or something, as I know that I'll over eat :/ Still trying to recover from finals tbh! I hope things go well for you soon :)

I'm unhappy with the vibes at work lately. It's so damn unnecessarily catty ._. People have zero chill and little motivation and it's so annoying...it kinda brings me down as well
 
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