What's Bothering You?

Cleaning this place is such a waste of time. I’ve just swept and mopped the floor and there’s bugs already crawling all over it. I hate coming here and I can’t wait to go home and shower.
 
Here twice in one day, sorry about that 😅

I'm so frustrated. My dad's got it in his head that his painkillers are part of why he's not getting better? Like the painkillers are keeping him sore. And sure - if this pain was recent maybe it would be a different story but he's been in pain my whole life. He was in an accident when I was a kid and he never fully healed from it - chronic pain is something he deals with and I know it's hard for him. Obviously the being in pain part is hard but he also struggles with not being able to work and being dependent on disability.

He recently made the decision - without really talking to his doctor - to quit some of his pain medication cold turkey. The plan with the doctor was to get a lower dose of one of the medications and receive a higher quantity of the other one he's on to balance it out until he's weaned off of the first medication. Turns out the lower dose isn't covered by his disability so without consulting his doctor he just... took the higher quantity of the other medication and didn't get the lower dose of the other one.

It's rough. He's been taking his prescription pills, advil, naproxen, this other pain medication he was prescribed years ago, and he's drinking. Not huge amounts but the fact that he'll have taken painkillers and still sometimes have a can of beer isn't okay. But he does it anyways. He's convinced himself that because he isn't out of his prescription pills he's fine - ignoring the fact that he's taking other OTC medications and drinking to get by. And even then he's in terrible shape.

I asked him what the big plan is and he wants to get off both his prescription painkillers because it's "just withdrawals right now I'm not actually sore" when that's not true. It's just not. He's definitely going through withdrawals and the withdrawals are rough but that's not his only problem. He's got nerve damage for God's sake. It's not like he broke an arm, they put him on too strong of a painkiller and he became addicted but now his arm is healed. His nerve damage never went away.

I'm just so tired.
 
Here twice in one day, sorry about that 😅

I'm so frustrated. My dad's got it in his head that his painkillers are part of why he's not getting better? Like the painkillers are keeping him sore. And sure - if this pain was recent maybe it would be a different story but he's been in pain my whole life. He was in an accident when I was a kid and he never fully healed from it - chronic pain is something he deals with and I know it's hard for him. Obviously the being in pain part is hard but he also struggles with not being able to work and being dependent on disability.

He recently made the decision - without really talking to his doctor - to quit some of his pain medication cold turkey. The plan with the doctor was to get a lower dose of one of the medications and receive a higher quantity of the other one he's on to balance it out until he's weaned off of the first medication. Turns out the lower dose isn't covered by his disability so without consulting his doctor he just... took the higher quantity of the other medication and didn't get the lower dose of the other one.

It's rough. He's been taking his prescription pills, advil, naproxen, this other pain medication he was prescribed years ago, and he's drinking. Not huge amounts but the fact that he'll have taken painkillers and still sometimes have a can of beer isn't okay. But he does it anyways. He's convinced himself that because he isn't out of his prescription pills he's fine - ignoring the fact that he's taking other OTC medications and drinking to get by. And even then he's in terrible shape.

I asked him what the big plan is and he wants to get off both his prescription painkillers because it's "just withdrawals right now I'm not actually sore" when that's not true. It's just not. He's definitely going through withdrawals and the withdrawals are rough but that's not his only problem. He's got nerve damage for God's sake. It's not like he broke an arm, they put him on too strong of a painkiller and he became addicted but now his arm is healed. His nerve damage never went away.

I'm just so tired.
If you're looking for any input regarding your father's medications and how they might mix with alcohol, then you're welcome to shoot me a message with the details of them. My word isn't gospel, of course, but I'm knowledgeable on this topic.
 
gonna be nice having some alone time later this week, my mom can be such a muppet at times.
 
I went to the dentist today and good news: they may have found the source of my pain. small irritation: “you know it’s that pop you drink.” -.- I know I know. 😔

Also still worried about some of my friends.

Wish something else would just go away permanently.

i hate the highlight text option in twitch.

I am watching a skyward sword stream and am bothered by all the throw the cat comments. i know it is a game but ugh. it just disgusts me. Not really enjoying the stream now :/

So crabby. I can’t remember if I took my medicine after I woke up from nap after the dentist appointment. I thought I did, so I guess I have to go through being crabby for the rest of the day. 😓
 
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i get my ap exam scores tomorrow and i’m stressing out over them bc i know i didn’t do very well 😅
 
This little fruit fly is annoying me. There was another bug in the room that my mom and I never found :(.
 
I took my dog on a walk and a guy I went to High School with said **** you to me. I’ve been told that so many times by teenagers that it means nothing. My heart rate doesn’t go up, I don’t feel distressed, and I don’t care about what they think of me anymore. The only thing I felt was frustration from running into him. I’m sick of being reminded of every rude person I went to school with. It’s not surprising since I’m in a rural area, but it gets old. At least I’m finally moving to a bigger city in a few weeks…
 
used my gems up the minute maintenance was over and no luck. :/ getting tired of this bad luck and lack of new free crystal sources. Hopefully i’ll pull the unit in the remaining free tickets I have to earn, but idk, i really lost the motivation to play now 😔. And i stayed up too late again.

Bothered about something else too.
 
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Woke up and Luna peed all over the bathroom. I know that she likes to pee into the bed of the other cats and I always thought it's to put her smell there, but the fact that she peed all over the bathroom floor, I finally put it together, that she might in fact have a infection or something like that and is not clean because of that. She's castrated, so that's not the problem. In 3 hours I know more. My poor Luna.. like she didn't go through enough already and I don't even understand her signs 😭
 
Woke up and Luna peed all over the bathroom. I know that she likes to pee into the bed of the other cats and I always thought it's to put her smell there, but the fact that she peed all over the bathroom floor, I finally put it together, that she might in fact have a infection or something like that and is not clean because of that. She's castrated, so that's not the problem. In 3 hours I know more. My poor Luna.. like she didn't go through enough already and I don't even understand her signs 😭

Oh no! I’m really sorry to hear that. I hope you’ll be able to find out what’s wrong and get her in the vet (I hope it’s nothing serious 🍀🤞) and get whatever is wrong taken care of.
 
I had to get a blood test done for work today and almost fainted 😩 why am I so bad with blood tests it's embarrassing
 
Feeling rough today. Is blowing off work to watch Harry Potter acceptable? Going to try and get through the bare minimum just so I can email my supervisor and say, "look, I completed this part!" and then I'll go curl up in a ball on the couch and feel sorry for myself.
 
I had to get a blood test done for work today and almost fainted 😩 why am I so bad with blood tests it's embarrassing

If it makes you feel better: My father is a really strong man. He could probably cut his finger off while working with a saw and would
calmly come to ask for help, lol. However, the only thing that he can't stand for some reason is a blood test. He always has to lay down
for 5 - 10 minutes once they took blood from him or else he is fainting. So nothing to be embarassed about!

Also I used to be so bad with blood tests (phobia of needles), I wouldn't accept to get my blood taken unless my fiancé was there
to hold my hand.. when I was 23 years old and I would still cry like a baby 😂
 
I took my dog on a walk and a guy I went to High School with said **** you to me. I’ve been told that so many times by teenagers that it means nothing. My heart rate doesn’t go up, I don’t feel distressed, and I don’t care about what they think of me anymore. The only thing I felt was frustration from running into him. I’m sick of being reminded of every rude person I went to school with. It’s not surprising since I’m in a rural area, but it gets old. At least I’m finally moving to a bigger city in a few weeks…
Honestly, you're doing the best thing possible by moving, especially to a big city. Whilst cities obviously have more people, I find city folk (heh) are less focused on what others are doing and way more diverse, meaning less likely to be mean and judgemental. Smaller areas everyone is very into each other's business and everyone seems to know everyone. It's a shame your dog didn't get mad at that person though, that might have given him a much needed fright.
 
ive become so numb to my anxiety that I didn't realize how bad it actually is. I really should get that checked out.

also heading home and I'm kinda bummed abt it but idk I'll try to keep my head up.
 
I can't stand blood tests either. Unless they are 110% necessary I just don't take them.. yeah that bad.
 
Oh no! I’m really sorry to hear that. I hope you’ll be able to find out what’s wrong and get her in the vet (I hope it’s nothing serious 🍀🤞) and get whatever is wrong taken care of.

The veterinaire was really confused, as he couldn't figure out why she would do that. I will now have to bring a urin test tomorrow morning, but he's pretty convinced that she is simply getting annoyed by the fact that there will be a baby soon. I didn't even think of this being a option, but the timing is fitting. The longer the pregnancy goes, the worse she became. Poor Luna trying already to show who's the boss of the house 😭 😂
 
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