What's Bothering You?

[Dunquixote]

Spoiler

Just dreading my niece’s birthday party even thought it is just one day and dreading going to go get her present. i know this sounds terrible, but leaving the house has been getting increasingly hard for me. i never enjoy myself at my sister’s because the kids are too much energy, I’m bored and have no place to retreat too, and I’m too anxious. Not to mention I’ve been over my limits stress wise for a couple weeks now and experiencing depression. I will grin and bear it since at least they’re not going to make me go to disney world when they. still, I just honestly can’t deal with being around my dad and his anxiety for even a day not to mention that my sister and dad sometimes gang up on me.

accidentally wasted ten leaf tickets to refresh a villager’s requests in pocket camp >< i bumped it by accident

 

[Beanz]

Spoiler: small rant that might not make sense

my grandma yelled at me which was triggered by my mom proposing that we all go on a family walk together. i was about to go until my mom asked if my grandma was going and she all of a sudden yelled about how she is never included in anything and how she needs me to stay with her despite being asked if she was gonna go or not. after my mom, dad, and brother + dog leave she goes on a rant about how nobody cares about her and how lonely she is + how my mom needs to learn how to be "independent" again (my mom is disabled, it's a long story.) i help my mom with some stuff and when we go places everyone walks ahead while i walk with my mom. she complains about how im always with my mom and how nobody cares about her, i will admit that i like being with my mom more than i do with her but im not trying to avoid her or make her feel lonely on purpose. i get that my mom gets more attention than her and she sounds slightly jealous but umm YOU'RE NOT THE DISABLED ONE. and if you feel lonely, theres ways to fix that like telling me to come sit with you or something but you dont have to be such a b about it.

 

[-Lumi-]

Spoiler: Job rambles

I hate job hunting. It’s so frustrating and I’m really worried about having to get some kind of cashier job. Which I know sounds like me being a baby and honestly it’s not like I’m qualified to do anything else (I don’t have a college/uni degree) but cashier work makes me so anxious.

I wish I could get a job in a store and just stock shelves but if you’re on the floor you can be called up to cash at any time. Cashier work makes me so anxious because I feel like I need to go quickly or a line starts forming, I’m not good at math so counting change is tricky for me and it’s embarrassing, and packing bags is so tricky because I’m nervous again about taking too long or potentially ruining whatever the customer is buying.

I just want to cry, honestly. I need to go back to work. I need to start making money again and something with benefits would be even better! But I’m not qualified for anything.

When I was working in the pharmacy I was so anxious all the time it was miserable. I’d have panic attacks daily and just end up crying on my lunch breaks and I’m so so so nervous about having to go back to that.

 

[TillyGoesMeow]

working from home bc boss got covid, and now I can’t go visit my parents this weekend. Got tested, but this is just all super stressful. I’m vaccinated but am immensely fearful of giving it to anyone else. I guess I’ll just wear a mask and quarantine until I get my results back? I’m just upset because I know my parents won’t understand why I won’t come down. I don’t think they believe covid is even real.
I just do not have the energy to deal with this rn

 

[deana]

Just having a very low energy day today

 

[Dunquixote]

Spoiler

my phone is irritating me. every time i type or move it while it is on the charger it goes off charge and on repeatedly. i need a new phone and probably should go to the store to look over ordering it online, but again, leaving the house is difficult for me and becomes more difficult increasingly. also the customer service last time was horrible.

 

[Neb]

One of my “friends” blew up at me when they saw a post about my last relationship. Apparently they thought we used to be a couple and that the toxic ex I mentioned was them. Even if it’s a misunderstanding I don’t know how to feel about this part of their personality.

 

[KittenNoir]

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[Midoriya]

Feeling better now. Thank you, Roxxy.

 

[Alienfish]

Why did this store remove a scarf they had like 10 of, I lowkey wanted to order it, lol?

 

[Chris]

working from home bc boss got covid, and now I can’t go visit my parents this weekend. Got tested, but this is just all super stressful. I’m vaccinated but am immensely fearful of giving it to anyone else. I guess I’ll just wear a mask and quarantine until I get my results back? I’m just upset because I know my parents won’t understand why I won’t come down. I don’t think they believe covid is even real.
I just do not have the energy to deal with this rn

Being vaccinated only minimises your chances of becoming sick; it is not completely effective at preventing infection - especially against the newer strains of COVID such as Delta Plus. You should still follow the requirements in your country (most likely self-isolating) despite being vaccinated.

Boring scientist mumbo jumbo aside, I hope your parents are understanding and don't try to guilt you for being unable to see them.

One of my “friends” blew up at me when they saw a post about my last relationship. Apparently they thought we used to be a couple and that the toxic ex I mentioned was them. Even if it’s a misunderstanding I don’t know how to feel about this part of their personality.

This is pure nosiness rather than an attempt to help, so feel free to tell me to bugger off, but I'm really curious to know: how did your friend manage to convince themself you were once in a relationship?

 

[Alienfish]

Good lord mom shut the **** up once in a while and learn to manage your mood swings thank you. Also not everyone are overly enthusiastic extroverts -_- Also protip: Wanting to get help and being lowkey aggressive and ranting about **** is a sure way not to get help from me, lol.

 

[xSuperMario64x]

the worst part about being autistic is being hyper-aware of oneself, acknowledging the times when one may very well be coming across as cold/rude/self-centered to an allistic person and having absolutely no clue how to resolve it.

really starting to think that the misunderstanding between autistic and allistic people really is a two way street.

 

[Violet Witch]

Nevermind

 

[Nicole.]

Just hoping for that visa sponsorship and I'm outta here!

 

[-Lumi-]

Spoiler: More Job Rambles

Applying for jobs makes me so nervous Always makes me all shaky when I send in resumes. Also I hate writing resumes and cover letters. More specifically cover letters they make me feel so awkward having to like. Talk myself up for a job

 

[xSuperMario64x]

I honest to god hate my memory loss, literally how could I be so dumb lol

 

[_Rainy_]

Allergies are getting me pretty bad today my eyes and nose burn. I also stayed up too late so I’m not feeling too good right now.

 

[xSuperMario64x]

literally the one time I have an opportunity to fix my DSiXL I cannot for the life of me remember where I put it -__-

edit: I found it, it was under my mountain of stuffed animals lol

 

[Dunquixote]

Spoiler

My mom keeps showing me pictures of my nieces. I love them but I really don’t care to see every single picture of them. I will be seeing them soon for the bday party I don’t want to go to. I just am not a kid/baby person. And honestly, I’m not feeling good. It kinda hurts she doesn’t see that or ask how I feel.

My phone is annoying me still.

Feeling sleepy even though I went to bed early and overslept.

I have a slight head ache and i kinda feel foggy like in my head. My teeth/jaws don’t hurt but when I was eating it hurt biting and chewing.

I owe someone a drawing of food but at the rate that I’ve been feeling (lack of energy and depression), I am worried that not only will I not get that started or done but I won’t get back to drawing. :/

Edit: Just found out my gray cat peed on my dad when they just gave her her second iv treatment and then kept peeing on the counter when they put her there. my mom said she was fine this morning though and i guess might have just picked up on my dad’s anxiety (which he claims he doesn’t have). My mom could also consider what i told her what was told to me before when i mentioned about them peeing outside of the litter box… but no, probably doesn’t want to admit still that she’s wrong. am grateful she didn’t have me do it today since my nerves and depression are just getting worse as the day progresses. still, i can’t help but wonder if she can’t read moods either. she came in really loud and after telling me that said i’m doing the litter today. i was under the assumption i was doing it today anyways, so okay…. i took a motrin an hour or less ago (forgot to write down what time i took it) and my head feels worse after this now.