The point of insulin is to manage your blood sugar levels, so this is most likely why your levels have stabilised.I feel so critical of myself for not preventing diabetes in the first place. The thing is I knew that something bad was happening to me but I made the stupid decision of ignoring the problem. The thing is I had problems last year with my doctors who somehow didn't get back to me when they took my blood. I also was told by a certain doctor who said "No matter how healthy you are, you're always going to have problems with your body" that part just crushed my soul and I just felt like nothing mattered anymore. So I started back eating Junk food.
The thing is I could've stopped myself from doing that but instead the addiction to junk food just got the better of me and it just out of control. Then it was only when by March 23rd that I started to feel so unwell. Thats when I told my mom to call 911 and thats how I ended up in the hospital. The doctors and nurses told me that I had diabetes because of my blood sugar being so high at 550. I knew at that point that it was the straw that broke the camels back because I allowed this to happen all because I didn't take my health seriously.
Now before anyone tries to cheer me up let me just explain one other thing. I have made improvements to my diet and my blood sugar has gone back to normal after taking insulin for the past 2 weeks. Whats driving me crazy is that I don't know if I have diabetes because my blood sugar ratings are more stable. The numbers were 105 in the Morning, 95 in the Afternoon, and 94 in the Evening. (this was today) This was before I ate a meal. So I beginning to wonder if maybe I somehow reversed the Diabetes or if for some reason I had enough Insulin from all the shots I've taken to get me back to normal. I don't know anymore and I feel like I've just lost my mind over this whole thing. I know I have an appointment coming on Monday to see the Diabetic doctor but I am just so unsure. Maybe I'm overthinking but this has just been getting to me so much these days and its affecting my mental health.
You see me right now I cannot handle this amount of stress. This is not helping my situation. If I have to be forced to do things that I have no choice to do then thats how its going to be. I allowed this to happen so I am going to DO things more seriously and MAKE sure that I don't end up back in the hospital. I am going to try really hard to be healthy and not let this happen again for the last time. I am sorry if I sound passive aggressive but this is just the type of stuff that I can't handle and I am just so sick and tired of gaslighting myself,The point of insulin is to manage your blood sugar levels, so this is most likely why your levels have stabilised.
As much as it sucks, your doctor is right: unfortunately everyone has issues with their body and we cannot always control that. We just need to do our best to manage the conditions/symptoms so that we can keep ourselves in the best shape possible. I get it, by the way. I've nerve damage (this was definitely preventable), anaemia (was potentially preventable), internal cysts, and my testosterone levels are ****ed. I didn't learn of any of this until my late 20s when these things became an obvious problem and I sought diagnosis. Nothing can be done to cure it now, and there's no point in hating myself for it, so I just take what treatment I'm offered and get on with it. Take the time to feel sad and hate any decisions you felt led to this diagnosis, by all means, but after you just need to accept that this is what you need to live with and do your best to make sure it doesn't get worse. Be kind to yourself man, cos no one else is going to be.
I should not have been working during that time unfortunately. The manager had me working immediately after my surgery without any recovery time. Even after seeing a picture of my bruised face, it wasn’t enough apparently. I was only placed on light duty, which was honestly surprising. I wasn’t even expecting that to happen. I had a very manipulative manager. There’s a reason I don’t work there anymore.@Croconaw Sorry you had to go through that! I had something similar happen when I worked construction late at night one time. People rip the copper out of walls (mostly drug-addicts) since scrap is so expensive. That was a nerve-wracking night lol... Especially when I was told to investigate the loud noises.
Glad that you're alright. I mean physically...since it is very nerve-wracking. That was just some stupid troll, probably even a child who thinks they were being edgy. Try not to pay them any mind.
Sounds like my dad, wants to get along but yeah he basically snaps at me when he can *rolls eyes*My dad: do u want to join us for a lil Easter gathering
Thinks about how loud they are despite their autistic child
Thinks about how rude they were at my Birthday
Thinks about being in a loud place
Anxiety +100000 points
I'd rather not but they are family and I don't want to be alone so I Should